Need some prayer.....feeling discouraged

[MissyG]

Hello everyone,

I just really some prayer. I have been feeling very discouraged lately. Letting my flesh and satan get the best of me. I love this forum, and have been the recipient of extreme generosity, but lately when I scroll through posts and I see people buying their 3rd Provari, or selling brand new MVP's that they found in a box and forgot they had, I get so down. I know I have so much to be grateful for and with my health situation I have been blessed beyond measure, but the flesh is weak and I admit I do get very jealous that so many seem to have all the money in the world to spend on toy after toy and I agonize over every dollar I spend on juice and often feel guilty doing it. I have never been a super materialistic person....I drive a 10 year old vehicle, I don't buy clothes often unless I just really need something. The only thing I really have to spend money on is shoes, but that is because with the neuropathy in my feet I have no choice but to buy GOOD shoes that support my feet to help with my pain. I love vaping, both because it freed me from the chains of smoking, but I do like the "hobby" aspect of it. I went to a vape meet up with members of an Alabama facebook group that I admin for. The fellowship was great, but again, watching as people pulled out toolboxes of mods and attys and talked about the next big purchase they were going to make just made me sad and jealous when I look at the one vaping device I own and had to save up for. I do not want feel this way and I am really struggling. I deal with depression and I am feeling myself slip into some of my depressive habits (pulling away from things I normally enjoy, sleeping alot, etc.) Please, I covet your prayers and thank you guys so much for being so supportive and loving.

 

[Elizabeth Baldwin]

I'm so sorry. I know some have it better financially than others. Some buy things with bill money too and later have to sale it. I know it sounds repetitive and you've probably heard this a hundred times but be thankful you have what you have. There are many who are in worse shape. Some don't have food or a place to live. It's a tough world out there. Happiness is something we can get with a little or a lot. We just have to learn how to tap into it without having to buy things. Easier said than done I know. I wish there was more I could say to make you feel better.

Sending hugs your way and praying for you.

 

[skimmer02]

I will definitely put you in my prayers tonight. I know about living on a tight budget. It's a struggle every month, but we manage. God takes care of us, we have everything we need. We may not have everything we want, but we have everything we need. Remember, some things are important, some are not.

 

[Saintscruiser]

Oh dear sweet Missy! I do understand. I battle depression and I just get sick and tired of it. Some days are great, emotionally and spiritually, and other days, the pain just gets to me. Depression isn't controlled by flipping a switch and suddenly you're fine. You and I live with pain, and it gets to you.Some days you deal with it better than others.I'm still using a Joye 510 with an extended battery.I mix 2 liquids. I realize that I'm probably on the lower rung of the totem pole, but I've learned to make it work.

So, let's break it down. You want a more powerful mod, and you can't afford it. Do you want to go into debt? Of course not. Do you have any money coming in? Save every penny you have left over. If that room is making you crazy, stay away from it.It's a trap for you, and as I am sure you know, jealousy is not from God.

We are the King's kids! He has supplied every need we have....and every once in awhile, He supplies us with some wants. Ask Him to take this desire away. In today's society, we are use to getting what we want when we want it. When you're on God's timing, sometimes you have to wait and I know that is so very frustrating! The obvious is that it's just not the right time for you to get one. That doesn't mean you'll never get it.

Third thing is ...... have you prayed about? Have you asked the Father to help you? You're in a spiritual battle. Anytime Jealousy springs up, you're in a spiritual battle. But be of good cheer! Jesus has overcome the world! My suggestion to you is to leave it at the cross and allow the Lord to do it for you! You will be amazed what He can arrange in our lives! I will be praying for you!!!

 

[mightymen]

Hello everyone,

I just really some prayer. I have been feeling very discouraged lately..

My loving sister in Christ.

1. Don't you know that your an inspiration to us who are in the body of Christ.
2. You have a ministry my sister and a gift of inspiration.
3. You have more than those who are in the world have.
4. You are a very powerful person able to overcome all things in Christ.

Listen to what our Lord said in Matthew Chapter 10

29 Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? and one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father.

30 But the very hairs of your head are all numbered.

31 Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows.

32 Whosoever therefore shall confess me before men, him will I confess also before my Father which is in heaven.

33 But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven.


I will pray for you to have peace.

 

[Saintscruiser]

Holy Father God, I come to you humbly in the Precious Name of Jesus, uplifting my Sister in prayer. I understand and can identify with her in her trek and it's so difficult to be a grown woman having medical problems living with their parents. It's not that she isn't thankful for everything You've done for her and even having wonderful family to help her....she is feeling trapped, like I did. As You know, Father, I had to depend on my parents financially and felt useless and unwanted by my spouse, even if it wasn't true. Father, we are women and You gave us these emotions and without Your help to control them, we find ourselves in a dark place. satan is circling her. Show her how to rebuke him and his dominion to keep her from confusion. It's by Your Name, Lord Jesus, that we have the authority to do the things You did when You were on earth. We get so beaten down, that a chipper voice can set us off. We don't want to hear that. You took care of Elijah when he was depressed and scared. You fed him and protected his slumber. Extend Your Hand to her, to help her get back on her feet, and brace her until she can stand once again on her own. Father, I know the depth of love You have for us. It boggles my mind, but show her the depth of Your kindness and love, and that material things are just things. To have Your love is the epitome of what life is all about. Help her find where she fits in, and shelter her until she is confident in You. Be gentle with her as You are with me. Allow the scales of the world to fall from her eyes so that she can see how truly rich she is. I will stand with her, as I am sure the loving people of this board will stand with her. I bind satan's power by the Powerful Name of Jesus into dust and cast him and his dominion into the abyss. You gave us Kingdom Authority and I am standing strong against the enemy. I rebuke jealousy as it comes from the very heart of hell. Have her parents uphold her in love and help. Thank You, Lord for them being in her life. Show her how blessed she is to have them to help and encourage her. I wish I had mine still on earth, but I am comforted by knowing they are with You. Thank You, Father, for what You are about to do in her life! Thank You for not only being her God, but her Friend, counselor, doctor, banker.....just everything to her. You are such an awesome God and I Praise You for who You are, Almighty God. You are everything to me. You make me who I am, and I am so very very grateful. For I pray in the Precious Name of Jesus, Amein.

 

[blondeambition3]

Holy Father God, I come to you humbly in the Precious Name of Jesus, uplifting my Sister in prayer. I understand and can identify with her in her trek and it's so difficult to be a grown woman having medical problems living with their parents. It's not that she isn't thankful for everything You've done for her and even having wonderful family to help her....she is feeling trapped, like I did. As You know, Father, I had to depend on my parents financially and felt useless and unwanted by my spouse, even if it wasn't true. Father, we are women and You gave us these emotions and without Your help to control them, we find ourselves in a dark place. satan is circling her. Show her how to rebuke him and his dominion to keep her from confusion. It's by Your Name, Lord Jesus, that we have the authority to do the things You did when You were on earth. We get so beaten down, that a chipper voice can set us off. We don't want to hear that. You took care of Elijah when he was depressed and scared. You fed him and protected his slumber. Extend Your Hand to her, to help her get back on her feet, and brace her until she can stand once again on her own. Father, I know the depth of love You have for us. It boggles my mind, but show her the depth of Your kindness and love, and that material things are just things. To have Your love is the epitome of what life is all about. Help her find where she fits in, and shelter her until she is confident in You. Be gentle with her as You are with me. Allow the scales of the world to fall from her eyes so that she can see how truly rich she is. I will stand with her, as I am sure the loving people of this board will stand with her. I bind satan's power by the Powerful Name of Jesus into dust and cast him and his dominion into the abyss. You gave us Kingdom Authority and I am standing strong against the enemy. I rebuke jealousy as it comes from the very heart of hell. Have her parents uphold her in love and help. Thank You, Lord for them being in her life. Show her how blessed she is to have them to help and encourage her. I wish I had mine still on earth, but I am comforted by knowing they are with You. Thank You, Father, for what You are about to do in her life! Thank You for not only being her God, but her Friend, counselor, doctor, banker.....just everything to her. You are such an awesome God and I Praise You for who You are, Almighty God. You are everything to me. You make me who I am, and I am so very very grateful. For I pray in the Precious Name of Jesus, Amein.

((((Praying fervently in agreement.... Amen))))))

 

[blondeambition3]

My loving sister in Christ.

1. Don't you know that your an inspiration to us who are in the body of Christ.
2. You have a ministry my sister and a gift of inspiration.
3. You have more than those who are in the world have.
4. You are a very powerful person able to overcome all things in Christ.

Listen to what our Lord said in Matthew Chapter 10

29 Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? and one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father.

30 But the very hairs of your head are all numbered.

31 Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows.

32 Whosoever therefore shall confess me before men, him will I confess also before my Father which is in heaven.

33 But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven.


I will pray for you to have peace.

((((((Praying in agreement with Brother mightymen that you will have Peace))))))

 

[cjcaddy]

Firstly, I think you are being too hard on yourself. The only perfect person was Jesus. God doesn’t expect us to be perfect. You are expecting from yourself more than God is expecting from you. I think He would like us to try very hard to “do unto others” but I also think He creates situations in our lives to give us an opportunity to grow, to examine our beliefs and values. If you try and fail a million times, God will love you a million times more. It’s the trying that counts not the failing. If you are constantly beating yourself up it serves no purpose, it’s self-defeating. You are just running around in circles and digging a deeper hole to fall into. When you know that you have tried and failed, that’s okay. When you know you should be happy with what you have but aren’t, that’s okay too. When you get depressed about it, well that’s fine too. It’s called being human and you are not alone.
You are mistaken if you think that because someone can afford to buy something you can’t that the person is better than you in any way or that if you could afford what they can afford that would make you a better or happier person or somehow equal to them. Are Bill Gates and Warren Buffet better people than Mother Teresa was? Things are just things and you are not a thing. You are a precious child of God and the riches that He wants you to have are not material. You are mistaken if you think having things will make you happy. How often do we read about celebrities that die of drug or alcohol abuse or who commit suicide. On the surface they had everything and yet they obviously felt something was missing in their lives.
When the voice in your head says things like “I’m weak and I have sinned” or “since I don’t have what others have I must be a loser” know that those thoughts are the result of value judgements that you have learned from other people, they do not come from God. The best you can do when those thoughts come is to acknowledge them and let them go. Don’t feed the thought by agreeing or disagreeing with it. Just let it be. Some people find it helpful to picture themselves putting the negative thoughts in a balloon and releasing it into the heavens, saying “God, I don’t need these. They serve no purpose”.
I would encourage you to read The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. While some Christian scholars have criticized this book it helped me tame my recurring negative thoughts and helped me put things into perspective. I still have dark days but when they come I am better able to deal with them.Think of yourself as a work of art in progress. Open your mind to new ways of thinking and look in your own heart for God’s comfort.
May God bless you and keep you safe in His hand.


(if you would like to know how I confirmed my faith in God this is a link to my blog
https://yesthereisagod-caddy.blogsp...VyKx4Neg&postId=6169237317366951463&type=POST

 

[Jdbaker82]

Missy do you mind if I ask how much you used to spend on your smoking habit when you still smoked? Pack a day?

Sent from my SCH-I545 using Xparent Skyblue Tapatalk 2

 

[mightymen]

(if you would like to know how I confirmed my faith in God this is a link to my blog
https://yesthereisagod-caddy.blogsp...VyKx4Neg&postId=6169237317366951463&type=POST

Thanks for pointing me to your blog, I read every single word.

Your testimony is very personal and encouraging thanks for sharing it with all of us.

May God continue to feed you and your ears to be open but most important you obey God. I pray in the name of my Lord Jesus.

 

[blondeambition3]

Thanks for pointing me to your blog, I read every single word.

me too.... and I was moved. It was beautiful. Real.

 

[MissyG]

I smoked about a pack and a half to two packs a week. I was more of a social smoker but felt myself wanting more and sneaking outside after my parents went to bed to smoke. (I currently live with my parents due to a health crisis I had a couple years ago).

Thank you to everyone for your positive thoughts and prayers, they are greatly appreciated. I have also been struggling with issues with my husband the past couple of weeks and it has caused me to develop a mouth full of canker sores, which I often get when under great stress. They have caused me a lot of pain and sleepless nights. I just have not had a good couple of weeks and this week has been especially hard. My birthday is on Friday and I have been preparing myself mentally to be disappointed by my husband. He has never been good with birthdays and he is having financial issues that he has been very passive aggressive about lately. I don't care about presents, but I am human and want to feel special on my birthday and I know I will not get that from him. During our separation I have tried so hard to work on the things I have been lacking in, trying to be the wife God wants me to be, but I have not been getting the same from him. I know he is the type of man that really has to figure things out for himself and he is so stubborn and convinced of his own "correctness" in all situations and I know it will take awhile and a lot of prayer for this to change, but I believe that we are joined by God and all things are possible with our Heavenly Father. I guess I have been disappointed so many times by his lack of....emotional support, his inability to just make me feel special, that I have been dreading this Friday, dreading the disappointment that will come when I don't get a call or a text, when I have to be the one to suggest we go to dinner or the movies, or whatever to celebrate. I know this is what is causing me stress and pulling me into that dark place of depression. I just want to be loved and cherished the way Christ loved the Church, that beautiful comparison of a man's love for his wife, especially on my birthday.

That in and of itself might be petty or self centered, to want to feel special on my "special" day, but again, the flesh is weak and I do. I don't really want to spend the week feeling guilty over his financial situation and feeling sad about mine. Anyway, sorry to ramble on so, and maybe to "over share" about my personal life, I just still request your prayers as I try to make out through a week that should be a happy one, but is not feeling very happy right now.

 

[blondeambition3]

I smoked about a pack and a half to two packs a week. I was more of a social smoker but felt myself wanting more and sneaking outside after my parents went to bed to smoke. (I currently live with my parents due to a health crisis I had a couple years ago).

Thank you to everyone for your positive thoughts and prayers, they are greatly appreciated. I have also been struggling with issues with my husband the past couple of weeks and it has caused me to develop a mouth full of canker sores, which I often get when under great stress. They have caused me a lot of pain and sleepless nights. I just have not had a good couple of weeks and this week has been especially hard. My birthday is on Friday and I have been preparing myself mentally to be disappointed by my husband. He has never been good with birthdays and he is having financial issues that he has been very passive aggressive about lately. I don't care about presents, but I am human and want to feel special on my birthday and I know I will not get that from him. During our separation I have tried so hard to work on the things I have been lacking in, trying to be the wife God wants me to be, but I have not been getting the same from him. I know he is the type of man that really has to figure things out for himself and he is so stubborn and convinced of his own "correctness" in all situations and I know it will take awhile and a lot of prayer for this to change, but I believe that we are joined by God and all things are possible with our Heavenly Father. I guess I have been disappointed so many times by his lack of....emotional support, his inability to just make me feel special, that I have been dreading this Friday, dreading the disappointment that will come when I don't get a call or a text, when I have to be the one to suggest we go to dinner or the movies, or whatever to celebrate. I know this is what is causing me stress and pulling me into that dark place of depression. I just want to be loved and cherished the way Christ loved the Church, that beautiful comparison of a man's love for his wife, especially on my birthday.

That in and of itself might be petty or self centered, to want to feel special on my "special" day, but again, the flesh is weak and I do. I don't really want to spend the week feeling guilty over his financial situation and feeling sad about mine. Anyway, sorry to ramble on so, and maybe to "over share" about my personal life, I just still request your prayers as I try to make out through a week that should be a happy one, but is not feeling very happy right now.

I'll be standing in Prayer with you and for you

 

[MissyG]

Thank you so much, I believe the greatest gift that someone can give another is the gift of prayer.

 

[Saintscruiser]

I smoked about a pack and a half to two packs a week. I was more of a social smoker but felt myself wanting more and sneaking outside after my parents went to bed to smoke. (I currently live with my parents due to a health crisis I had a couple years ago).

Thank you to everyone for your positive thoughts and prayers, they are greatly appreciated. I have also been struggling with issues with my husband the past couple of weeks and it has caused me to develop a mouth full of canker sores, which I often get when under great stress. They have caused me a lot of pain and sleepless nights. I just have not had a good couple of weeks and this week has been especially hard. My birthday is on Friday and I have been preparing myself mentally to be disappointed by my husband. He has never been good with birthdays and he is having financial issues that he has been very passive aggressive about lately. I don't care about presents, but I am human and want to feel special on my birthday and I know I will not get that from him. During our separation I have tried so hard to work on the things I have been lacking in, trying to be the wife God wants me to be, but I have not been getting the same from him. I know he is the type of man that really has to figure things out for himself and he is so stubborn and convinced of his own "correctness" in all situations and I know it will take awhile and a lot of prayer for this to change, but I believe that we are joined by God and all things are possible with our Heavenly Father. I guess I have been disappointed so many times by his lack of....emotional support, his inability to just make me feel special, that I have been dreading this Friday, dreading the disappointment that will come when I don't get a call or a text, when I have to be the one to suggest we go to dinner or the movies, or whatever to celebrate. I know this is what is causing me stress and pulling me into that dark place of depression. I just want to be loved and cherished the way Christ loved the Church, that beautiful comparison of a man's love for his wife, especially on my birthday.

That in and of itself might be petty or self centered, to want to feel special on my "special" day, but again, the flesh is weak and I do. I don't really want to spend the week feeling guilty over his financial situation and feeling sad about mine. Anyway, sorry to ramble on so, and maybe to "over share" about my personal life, I just still request your prayers as I try to make out through a week that should be a happy one, but is not feeling very happy right now.

Missy, my husband and I have the same birthday....not the year, but the same day. Neither one of us feels 'special!' Now, I will acknowledge the day, but that's all since the number is going up. We used to celebrate together for a week, but now, we're doing good to wish each other a good day! If he's lucky, (HA!) I just might bake him a cake this year......maybe.

One of the hardest lessons I had to learn was that the only person you can change is yourself. Now you can pray for them or live by example, but you can't make anyone else do anything. Trust me.....I've tried. So, I had to get to a place where I accepted my husband as he is, not who I wanted him to be. I leave it to God and allow God to place peace in my heart about it. It's an easy rule of thumb, but without God, none of this will happen. I'm not saying we live in la la land... happy happy happy because we don't. No married couple does. Now opposites attract, because together, they make up a whole. That's not to say that you won't have common denominators. The longer you're married, you'll find that you both discover things that you both like or don't like. Up front, I told my husband I do not eat fish. I don't want to fish. The smell makes me nauseous! Blah! My husband would love to go fishing. So, I say, "Have a great time! And don't forget, no fishy smell in the house!" He likes concerts. I have gone with him, but I can't handle the super loud music or the language anymore. But, we've got tickets to go see Jeff Dunham in Sept. I want to get my sister a Peanut t-shirt. Hopefully, that should be enjoyable! I wasn't able to make a turn around trip last December for Trans-Siberian Orchestra. I love winter. Fibro HATES winter. We gave the tickets to our friends and they had a great time! Life is too short to live in turmoil. I sure hope this has helped in some tiny way.

 

[rc3po]

Thank you so much, I believe the greatest gift that someone can give another is the gift of prayer.

I prayed for you sweetheart!
I don't care at all about what people have and their fancy mods. I'm happy with my 2 e-LVT's that aren't very expensive. I have a nearly brand new Zmax that I don't use that you can have if you PM me an address to send it to. I'm kinda new to these type of forums so I'm not really sure how you do that stuff.
Also, you can save a lot of money by using a rebuildable atty like a R91 or KayFun Lite +. I had a KF clone but I already gave it away.
Do you make your own juice? You can save a lot of money by making your own juice - it's fun too!