I'm so glad I no longer have to say, "Not right now, honey. Let me finish my cigarette and then I'll let you in my lap and read you a story". Guilt is to motherhood as grapes are to wine, but add in smoking...argh. Such guilt. That is the biggest relief for my with making the switch. I never felt that guilty about damaging my own health and shortening my life span...until I had a daughter came into the picture whose future I want to be there for.
Sometimes, I'd have to "step out" at a holiday party and ask a family member to keep on eye on her while I went to satisfy my nic craving.
I've actually gotten crap from other smokers because I didn't go sit on my porch outside and smoke - I smoked in the house and in the car. I didn't smoke in the car when she was in it, but I've been admonished for these things. I think its a little hypocritical when other smoking parents want to act like anti's on me, like they are so much better. I had enough guilt about smoking around me child that I quit and failed, quit and failed, quit and failed...and have now finally succeeded and I know I will never go back. So now my guilt consists of wishing I could buy her more presents for Christmas than I can afford.
You know when your atomizer is running dry and you get that burnt & smoky taste - that taste reminds me of the analogs I used to smoke and I HATE that taste.
My daughter is only 4, but she is so proud of me for quitting cigarettes. I probably wouldn't have investigated e-cigarettes if it weren't for my concern over her. I haven't experienced too many ill effects of cigarettes and am young enough (28) that emphysema, COPD seemed far in the future. I wanted to quit because I knew as long as I was a smoker (whether I smoked around her or not) that SHE was a smoker, too.
Honestly, others could smell the smoke on HER clothes, just from her clothes being in a closet in a house that a smoker lives in. The daycare workers, when she was in daycare, knew that I was a smoker because they could smell smoke on her. I felt very ashamed. I didn't quit trying to quit though, and finally found e-cigarettes. I still feel shame about having been a smoker, but I'm not one anymore...so she is not one anymore.