Debs63 don't be too hard on yourself. There is quite a learning curve to e-cigs and if you understand some things it may help you along the way.
A good part of smoking is habit. The lighting, puffing, the taste, the feel in your throat and lungs, the smoke you exhale and so many other little things. I once went into a completely pitch black room and smoked a cigarette with my eyes covered so I couldn't even see the burning ash. I then came out of that room and within a few minutes it was as though I never had one.
Tobacco contains over 4,000 different chemicals, many cancer causing, many toxic and many addictive. Besides the nicotine, there are many other addictive chemicals that are naturally in tobacco and others that big tobacco has intentionally put into tobacco to enhance your addiction so you keep spending your hard-earned money on their poison. E-cigs do not replace or substitute these "other" addictive chemicals so you will experience withdrawal from these without realizing it. But the good news is that you are getting the nicotine that your body wants.
You are and have to "train your brain" to accept
vaping as your new way of smoking. There's gonna be some willpower and some just telling yourself "no" when the urge to grab a cig hits you. But for many (at least for me) there are not going to be any (or hardly any) withdrawal symptoms, at least not nearly as bad as if you quit smoking cold turkey without vaping.
Look at all the good stuff! No more trips to the store for cigs and continuously trying to make sure you've got some with you. No more lighters/matches, no more butts or ashtrays, no more
smell on you, your house (and everything in it) and your vehicles and clothes. It won't take long and your senses of taste and smell will return with a vengeance in a good way. So many things that the tar of tobacco have stuck to will be much cleaner now. There are just so many advantages to what you are doing that are so much better and healthier for you.
Just give it your best shot and before long you just may wake up and realize that you didn't have one single analog the day before - then you can say that you quit smoking for good. In the meantime don't beat yourself up just because you grab a cig once in a while. For many, it takes weeks or even months to get "over the hump".
