Well...I'm sorry to say I just went outside and smoked two analogs :-(
I'm not that annoyed with myself. When I bought my PV 11 days ago my intention was never to quit completely any time soon, but I had hoped that I was going to be one of those people who gave up accidentally. The journey continues.
So what was it like? Well, they tasted horrible, far less pleasant than vape, and they didn't exactly kill a craving, as such.
However: My anxiety level has gone down from 9/10 to 6/10, and the breathlessness / burping thing seems to have abated. In a way it's a good thing to find this out, because it indicates that this symptom was either caused by my anxiety or my withdrawal from one of the other things in analogs (MAOIs I suspect).
So where do I go from here? I'm not entirely sure. I have a very stressful weekend coming up (visiting my father - a long story, but perhaps my biggest anxiety trigger of all). Wondering whether to just allow myself one or two cigs a day for a bit, on the basis that it's better than the 30 I would have smoked under normal circumstances. I just don't know. What I do know is that this is still something that's going to be really hard. It's a shame that I had 5 such great days that lulled me into a false sense of security...
You had em, you calmed down, you didn't really like em...am I hearing you right?
Cuz if so, hon, it sounds like you're doing everything right! Few of us make the switch instantly. What you describe sounds exactly like the most common path walked by smokers-becoming-vapers: to be exact, you avoid stinkies easier than you ever thought possible, til it hits you. When you feel about to tear your hair out, have one. You won't like it, and each time you don't like it, your body learns from that. One day very soon I can almost guarantee you wont want em any more.
I'll only presume to "advise" you on one thing: try to ease up on yourself, my friend. As a parent I understand the guilt that hits like a mack truck when you have to sit in the other room to breathe a min... Been there, too! just remember, you're doing something great for your son. In the long run of his life, he'll never know you had occasional moments in his infancy where you stepped out of the room for a while to find your calm again. By doing so, you're actually protecting him from things he would remember - whether that be the. moment of frustration you'd show if you didn't step out a sec, or the lifetime of cig smoking that you're going thru this transition to avoid showing him. Either way you cut it, hon, you're doing great -- both as a quitting smoker, and as a new parent. Go pat yourself on the back and vape some clouds.
