You guys and girls have been a huge part of my life since I found you. Wether making a silly post or just reading, I am here allot. Why would a 47 year old man with 3 kids and an awesome wife spend so much time on a forum for the first time in his life?
You could say I have no life, you could say its because I just love REOs and vaping more than hanging with my family. You could say a lot of things
Truth is, I have battled with a phobia of driving on bridges and overpasses since I was like 25. In summary, I have avoided so many of them that it worsened to the point where I started to see a psychologist in 2011 after having no work in a construction industry that suddenly required PMs to be road worriers.
I got lucky and reverted back to architecture, working from home. Now, rather than take my back roads town the Atlanta, I was comfortably working from my home office
In august last year I suffered my first heart attack while laying in bed. Just out if the blue. Ambulance ride to the hospital. Turned out it wasn't a heart attack it was a panic attack.
After that attack I became afraid that I would have another and my general dr said I was depressed and wanted to medicate me. I resisted because im afraid of meds after all the recreational stuff I did as a kid. Me depressed? I'm generally the happiest kid in the park!
So I went back to my psychologist because I felt weird - like I didn't want to even leave my town weird. He said that I have avoided my fears to the point where I developed GAD and that was causing me to become depressed. Ol _X_ with GAD? Me? Are you kidding me? No. Not kidding. Scary stuff.
So back to why I'm on here so much: because it is engrossing and a distraction for me. It has been with me through the toughest times, the nights when I can't sleep , or wake up at 2 am. Y'all have been here for me.
Well here's the story:
My family planned a beach vacation 4 months ago. As the time neared, I knew I wouldn't be able to go and finally told my wife. She wasn't understanding. Well they left Saturday morning. I became MISERABLE. Tried to engross myself, shot the Odin video (can you hear my squeaky trembly voice? I tried to mask it).
I didn't eat, couldn't sleep. I was in a state of extreme anxiety and near panic attack level. I could not be consoled. On Sunday My wife offered to load up and pick me up. Of course I chickened out. That's what people like me do, we avoid things that may cause us anxiety.
Monday comes and I can't relax, still haven't eaten, woke up at 2:00 am and couldn't sleep. I was very concerned about my well being because I had none.
My wife calls me at 10:00am and says they miss me so much. She offers to pick me up again. I say ok. Come get me.
Mind you, I haven't been further than 20 miles from my home since my panic attack in 2013, and even before that we rarely went anywhere beyond that 20 mile radius.
So now they were driving 7 hours to pick me up then turn around and drive back. I had to do it.
With the help of my amigos VAL kilmer and LIUM niellson, I got myself comfortable in the back of the van and rode it out. ..... slapped a bunch of fears all the way here.
I'm feeling so empowered and happy by facing my fears. All I can say is it has lifted a huge burden from my mind and this is an epic milestone EPIC for me and my family. I'm so relieved that I just had to share and open up with those of you that have been with me all this time unaware of my problems.
There will be more pix. I have 2 other mods . First time me or my REOs have been more than an hour from home
Thanks y'all. Now it's time to wake up them kids and rock this vacation
You could say I have no life, you could say its because I just love REOs and vaping more than hanging with my family. You could say a lot of things
Truth is, I have battled with a phobia of driving on bridges and overpasses since I was like 25. In summary, I have avoided so many of them that it worsened to the point where I started to see a psychologist in 2011 after having no work in a construction industry that suddenly required PMs to be road worriers.
I got lucky and reverted back to architecture, working from home. Now, rather than take my back roads town the Atlanta, I was comfortably working from my home office
In august last year I suffered my first heart attack while laying in bed. Just out if the blue. Ambulance ride to the hospital. Turned out it wasn't a heart attack it was a panic attack.
After that attack I became afraid that I would have another and my general dr said I was depressed and wanted to medicate me. I resisted because im afraid of meds after all the recreational stuff I did as a kid. Me depressed? I'm generally the happiest kid in the park!
So I went back to my psychologist because I felt weird - like I didn't want to even leave my town weird. He said that I have avoided my fears to the point where I developed GAD and that was causing me to become depressed. Ol _X_ with GAD? Me? Are you kidding me? No. Not kidding. Scary stuff.
So back to why I'm on here so much: because it is engrossing and a distraction for me. It has been with me through the toughest times, the nights when I can't sleep , or wake up at 2 am. Y'all have been here for me.
Well here's the story:
My family planned a beach vacation 4 months ago. As the time neared, I knew I wouldn't be able to go and finally told my wife. She wasn't understanding. Well they left Saturday morning. I became MISERABLE. Tried to engross myself, shot the Odin video (can you hear my squeaky trembly voice? I tried to mask it).
I didn't eat, couldn't sleep. I was in a state of extreme anxiety and near panic attack level. I could not be consoled. On Sunday My wife offered to load up and pick me up. Of course I chickened out. That's what people like me do, we avoid things that may cause us anxiety.
Monday comes and I can't relax, still haven't eaten, woke up at 2:00 am and couldn't sleep. I was very concerned about my well being because I had none.
My wife calls me at 10:00am and says they miss me so much. She offers to pick me up again. I say ok. Come get me.
Mind you, I haven't been further than 20 miles from my home since my panic attack in 2013, and even before that we rarely went anywhere beyond that 20 mile radius.
So now they were driving 7 hours to pick me up then turn around and drive back. I had to do it.
With the help of my amigos VAL kilmer and LIUM niellson, I got myself comfortable in the back of the van and rode it out. ..... slapped a bunch of fears all the way here.
I'm feeling so empowered and happy by facing my fears. All I can say is it has lifted a huge burden from my mind and this is an epic milestone EPIC for me and my family. I'm so relieved that I just had to share and open up with those of you that have been with me all this time unaware of my problems.
There will be more pix
. I have 2 other mods . First time me or my REOs have been more than an hour from home Thanks y'all. Now it's time to wake up them kids and rock this vacation
