Rough Day for sure......

[maureengill]

So....today is the year mark of my nephew's death....guess it's no surprise that I'm late to work today....probably be late getting home too. I won't be stopping anywhere and well...screw talking to anyone today. I made it out of the drink last night without a cigarette which I have to say was a damn miracle considering I had multiple people there that would have given me one and I had two sitting in the console of my car....

I'd swear that today is a reminder of that old saying...life sucks...and then you die....except that some of us are stuck living...and there are a lot of days that sucks too.

Just a reminder to hold close what is dear to you...it may not always be there....

Thanks FSUSA for the menthol that kept me off the smokes last night....I really never though that this was possible. If only I could feel like a human being again....normal would be acceptable....

 

[Stevew443]

I am reading this post, feeling every bit of your pain, knowing that there is nothing in this world that I can do or say to ease that pain, so I will just continue to feel the pain with you.

 

[mauisun]

yes good time to remind everyone to enjoy life every day it is precious. Condolences on your loss

 

[trichman]

I too feel your pain Maureen. I lost my nephew a few years ago tragically on the eve of his 30th birthday. The next year was hard on all of the family. All of those firsts, first Easter, Christmas and all was tough. Just know that it does get a little easier with time but the pain never goes away. I hope you feel better!

 

[maureengill]

Thanks everybody.

 

[vaporgalinfla]

I'm sorry Maureen; losing a family member or close friend is so difficult.

 

[Padre]

I too feel your pain Maureen. I lost my nephew a few years ago tragically on the eve of his 30th birthday. The next year was hard on all of the family. All of those firsts, first Easter, Christmas and all was tough. Just know that it does get a little easier with time but the pain never goes away. I hope you feel better!

Wow, you took the words right from my mouth! I lost a nephew tragically but it was on my daughters 21st birthday. The first year is hard, but the pain lessens as the time goes by. every year it's bittersweet, celebrate my daughters birthday and remember my nephew.

Sorry for your loss Maureen.
time heals all wounds, but right now it hurts

 

[quittin4mykids]

I am so sorry- Your loss is hard to imagine- I am sending up a prayer for you to have some peace.

 

[TexasT]

Please remember that there are a lot of us here that love YOU.

 

[Elphaba13]

I'm so sorry, Maureen. Be good to yourself. Thinking of you. Xx

 

[Seneca]

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. ((Hugs))

 

[div]

So sorry...sending ((HUGS)).

 

[maureengill]

Thanks guys....

I survived, but I did smoke yesterday. I had 3 cigs, but I'm not stressing about them.

 

[vaporgalinfla]

Maureen - That's okay; 3 cigs isn't bad. I'm glad you survived the day.

 

[katydid]

Glad you found a way to get through your day. Hopefully tomorrow will be easier. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself.

 

[redheadone]

So sorry to hear of your loss I know how you feel believe me The year anniversary of my son's death is coming up July 16th and I just hope when that day comes I will be able to hold it together. Hugs to you

 

[maureengill]

Sorry to hear that redhead.... (hugs back )

A death in the family should bring families together, but this (along with other issues) has really torn my family apart. I'm coping...I just need to remember that I'm not the only one dealing with this and that there are people that I can talk to about it who understand.

So sorry to hear of your loss I know how you feel believe me The year anniversary of my son's death is coming up July 16th and I just hope when that day comes I will be able to hold it together. Hugs to you

 

[redheadone]

I can understand perfectly. There are issues that have torn family apart over my son's death. I sure am glad that i have a family here at the forum and I definately have you in my prayers and thoughts.

 

[ThomasP]

No parent should ever have to bury a child. I remember my grandmother burying three of her sons and a husband between November of 1983 and August of 1984. Her oldest son died in a remarkably tragic way.

That time still haunts every one in my family that is old enough to remember it.

The pain fades over time but the good memories of the ones we lose last a lifetime.

 

[toto1013]

Hugs and prayers Maureen. Some days one just has to live each minute at a time. Just know that you are not alone.