Okay, I will close with this, then. It sounds like you are in a fair amount of misery right now, and despite all the pros/cons presented here, you are an adult, you DO get to choose if/when you want to try and vape, and you can make that choice for yourself, whenever you want, there's no one here that's going to recommend vaping, nor prohibit it. Only you are inhabiting your own skin right now, and if you want to try and vape 0 nicotine *whenever* that's up to you. It may help, it may do very little, but it sounds to me like you want to try it, and it's not prohibited, so if you feel the need... That is totally within your rights to decide, *without* feeling bad about it.
Anna
Anna