I have a little good news to share but there is some not-so-good-news to share also.
Earlier this week I went back to the surgeon whose been treating me after a series of mammograms and ultrasounds picked up some cysts in my breasts. It turns out the one in the right side is now two so I will be going to the hospital for outpatient surgery on Oct. 29th. It turns out the one cyst is now two so the surgeon is making the arrangements to have both the cysts located in the right side removed. There are still four, as of last physical examination and mammogram/ultrasound that will be watched to find out how they progress but the cysts that came back on the report I received on the mammogram and ultrasounds this time was different in that it said I needed to seek medical attention immediately due to the changes in the cyst, now cysts.
Once the surgeon removes the two cysts, they will go to pathology and hopefully I will learn whether or not I will be fighting breast cancer. I'm hoping with everything I have that the results on the cysts will turn out to be non-cancerous but if they are, then I will have to begin a medicine regimen of chemotherapy and radiation therapy. My only fear is that with no immune system to speak of because of lupus and Sjogren's disease, I don't know if my body itself is strong enough to fight the good fight. I hope it is possible but at the same time, I hope the ordeal turns out to be nothing more than benign cysts that simply need removal. Although, even if these two cysts that will be removed in a week from today do come back as non-cancerous, I still have the other four to worry about so we are discussing the option of biopsying the four remaining cysts to give me peace of mind and to find out one way or another so I can stop being afraid I won't be able to fight this off and instead end up in failure leaving behind a minor daughter who needs a mother as well as an adult daughter who is getting married as of this Sunday (Oct. 24th) and who will need her mother just as much as her younger sister as she is stepping into a whole new stage of her life where sage advice from parents, especially mothers can give since this is my daughter. She will need me just as much as her husband will need advice along the way from his dad & step-dad when it comes to being a new husband with a wife to worry over and vice-versa. I want to be here for both my girls as well as for my soon-to-be son-in-law should he need my help or simply needs to talk about his new life with my daughter.
If it were not for the combination of Medicare, Medicare D, and the state's program that closes that doughnut hole in coverage, I would not even have a chance at that b/c I am on disability for blindness initially but today I am fighting the retinal eye disease, optic nerve issue, lupus (SLE), and Sjogren's disease with the possibility of Fibromyalgia as well as all the problems and complications that come with the latter three health conditions. I cannot afford to pay retail for my medications that are keeping me semi-functional and with as little pain as possible; the medications for pain does not stop the pain completely; however, it does make it tolerable. But if I had to buy just my medications alone at the retail price vs my co-pays from Medicare D, I would be paying out twice to a little over twice what I draw in disability. There would be nothing left to cover the bills such as a roof over our heads, groceries, utilities, and other household bills.
I've probably said this before but I will say it again, the internet access I keep is not a luxury as one may believe. Because of my blindness, the internet allows me to remain in contact with school teachers regarding my youngest daughter's educational progression, staying in the loop on a support group for lupus, Sjogren's and other autoimmune diseases, as well as preventing me from feeling so alone out in this rural area b/c most of my friends are too far to visit, esp when you can't drive, and others have moved out of the state over the years. It allows me to keep up and pay bills as well as pick up some freelance writing work when I am physically, emotionally, and healthy enough to work to earn a little extra to pay on bills that my disability simply cannot cover alone. It's a necessity when you're blind and cannot otherwise do these things by simply jumping into the car and driving to where you need to meet. I can't do it because I can't see more than an inch or so in front of me and that's on a good day.
I'm extremely talented with budgeting money but budgeting and having extra remaining at the end of the month are two separate monsters. Not everyone can put back a couple hundred dollars each month because it's simply not there to put back.
I may disappear off the list for a few days to a week after my surgery. It will all depend on how long I have to stay in the hospital and how well I feel but I will be back. Just give me some time. I have to get through the wedding this weekend and then prepare for next week's pre-op run-throughs and lab work before going into the hospital on Friday, Oct. 29th. I'll be back online as soon as possible.
BTW, my surgeon's office put in my paperwork that I am NOT a smoker!

That made my day...