Yeah i dont know whats wrong with me ...I dont WANT to smoke but sometimes it gets me again .its a nasty addiction for me .I am able to go most weekends as it is hidden from hubby just like any other addict

I dont smoke everyday ,but when i fall its one or two in a day ,so maybe not a pack a week always ,still bad .This makes me ill advised to help anyone but if i could say ,just keep fighting it .sometimes the urge passes in an hour or so .
Wow...this just spoke to me for some reason.
Part of the problem with quitting smoking is we've all done it so many times and we feel & are made to feel like failures when we don't succeed. In my 38 years of smoking, I never made it past 3 days without a smoke.
When I started vaping, I decided I wasn't setting myself up for failure again. If I wanted a cigarette, I had it. That took the total stress out of it. And immediately I went from a pack - 2 packs a day to 4 cigarettes a day. Granted it wasn't always easy; sometimes I had to talk myself out of that smoke. But I was okay with where I was at and I think that was key. Because pretty soon I was down to 2 a day, then 1 a day, then 1 every couple of days. It just happened; it wasn't a deliberate move on my part.
I don't honestly know when I smoked my last cigarette. I think it was somewhere around 10 months after I started vaping. One day I just realized I hadn't smoked in a while.
There have been occasional temptations, but they're very rare & over pretty quickly now.
So Nancy, my advice to you is just to relax & don't be so hard on yourself. So what if you smoke a few here & there? You're still in a much better place now. Try to be happy with where you're at. Not everyone quits smoking the minute they start vaping & not everyone who vapes has quit smoking completely.
Finally, if this is really on your heart to be completely smoke free, perhaps you might want to look at some other parts of ECF that discuss snus and/or WTA liquid. For some people, vaping nicotine is just not enough & they supplement with snus or WTA.
Take heart Nancy. There is nothing "wrong" with you and you are not "falling".