My name's May and I smoked my first cigarette at 15 years old.
I had an eating disorder through high school and saw a magazine ad with a super skinny girl on it smoking a cigarette. That was when I associated cigarettes with being skinny. You can see how this can spiral out of control in a teenager's mind. I would skip class to smoke and by the time it was even legal for me to smoke cigarettes, I was a pack a day smoker.
I got a job at a hookah lounge because I could smoke at my job, and I thought that was a huge plus. It also started my pretty horrible smoking pattern of 6-hour-hookah-sessions, a pack a day, and a clove or two at night with the occasional cigar. Friends of mine thought it'd be cool to get a younger crowd smoking wood pipes so we all invested in that as well. I would spend most of my day smoking and the rest just thinking about smoking. I didn't want to quit though.
Quitting was easy. I've quit a million times. But none of the quitting methods worked for more than a couple of weeks before I wanted to smoke and caved in once again on this vicious cycle of new quitting products and methods and smoking to the next new quitting method and back to smoking. It was getting ridiculous and expensive.
We had a little party at my new place and a friend of mine showed up with his e-cig. I was hesitant about him vaping it in the house but once I realized how nice it smelled and he explained about how it wasn't harmful, I let him. All night long I was taking hits off of it and started to really like it. It was a Blu.
So I went out and bought myself a Blu kit. My fiancé and I were super skeptical about them, though. We didn't know the health benefits or anything of them. He got so fed up with the quitting and smoking cycle that he just quit cold turkey. I started vaping. I offered to let him try it, he didn't want to. He is a little stubborn. It's been six months. I've been vaping, he's still sneaking Black N Milds and I'm well into the mod-world. I'm still trying different tanks as when I find one I really like I find it hard to buy any others. If it's not broke don't fix it sort of logic, I suppose. I've been in therapy for a whole year to recover from my horrible eating patterns and eating disorder issues, and for the first time in a long time, I feel in control of my life.
I found my fiancé 's hidden stash of black n milds and I've replaced a couple of them with basic ego starter kits, pre-loaded with a black n mild flavor in them. Tomorrow morning he'll probably go into his secret stash and see it and hopefully he'll try it and be surprised. I'm crossing my fingers because I got the flavor for him.
I hope to return and make this not only my own success story, but my love's success story as well. All in due time, I know. But I'm crossing my fingers that he catches onto it.
I had an eating disorder through high school and saw a magazine ad with a super skinny girl on it smoking a cigarette. That was when I associated cigarettes with being skinny. You can see how this can spiral out of control in a teenager's mind. I would skip class to smoke and by the time it was even legal for me to smoke cigarettes, I was a pack a day smoker.
I got a job at a hookah lounge because I could smoke at my job, and I thought that was a huge plus. It also started my pretty horrible smoking pattern of 6-hour-hookah-sessions, a pack a day, and a clove or two at night with the occasional cigar. Friends of mine thought it'd be cool to get a younger crowd smoking wood pipes so we all invested in that as well. I would spend most of my day smoking and the rest just thinking about smoking. I didn't want to quit though.
Quitting was easy. I've quit a million times. But none of the quitting methods worked for more than a couple of weeks before I wanted to smoke and caved in once again on this vicious cycle of new quitting products and methods and smoking to the next new quitting method and back to smoking. It was getting ridiculous and expensive.
We had a little party at my new place and a friend of mine showed up with his e-cig. I was hesitant about him vaping it in the house but once I realized how nice it smelled and he explained about how it wasn't harmful, I let him. All night long I was taking hits off of it and started to really like it. It was a Blu.
So I went out and bought myself a Blu kit. My fiancé and I were super skeptical about them, though. We didn't know the health benefits or anything of them. He got so fed up with the quitting and smoking cycle that he just quit cold turkey. I started vaping. I offered to let him try it, he didn't want to. He is a little stubborn. It's been six months. I've been vaping, he's still sneaking Black N Milds and I'm well into the mod-world. I'm still trying different tanks as when I find one I really like I find it hard to buy any others. If it's not broke don't fix it sort of logic, I suppose. I've been in therapy for a whole year to recover from my horrible eating patterns and eating disorder issues, and for the first time in a long time, I feel in control of my life.
I found my fiancé 's hidden stash of black n milds and I've replaced a couple of them with basic ego starter kits, pre-loaded with a black n mild flavor in them. Tomorrow morning he'll probably go into his secret stash and see it and hopefully he'll try it and be surprised. I'm crossing my fingers because I got the flavor for him.
I hope to return and make this not only my own success story, but my love's success story as well. All in due time, I know. But I'm crossing my fingers that he catches onto it.
