Stressed and smoked one today

[Stormynights]

I survived a very stressful day today. The last time I tried to quit smoking my sister died and I went right back to smoking. That was a few years ago. I have been smoke free now for over a month. Today I smoked one but I didn't like it I was just so frustrated. Hopefully I won't do that again. I think I need to find something to handle frustration better. Maybe I should be thankful that That was the worse thing that happened.

 

[seminolewind]

That's okay, I slipped a few weeks ago when we had to euthanize one of my chicks. Just forget it and go on.
What to do when stressed? Have 2 ecigs going at the same time.

 

[Elendil]

Don't worry about it. Think of all the analogs you haven't smoked while you've been vaping............

Now get back on the horse!!

 

[Stormynights]

I made funeral arrangements for my Mother. It was just very hard to do. I don't think I ever did anything that she approved of. It just made me feel like a child again.

 

[laynies]

Stormy, I'm so sorry to hear about your mother. Honey, smoking a cigarette is not something you need to beat yourself up about. Think about the other 19 you didn't smoke instead

Sending warm thoughts your way.

 

[Jules22871]

Stormy, I am really sorry to hear about what you are going thru. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

I think we all slip and have an analog now and then when we start vaping. Hell, I've had 3 today so far and I don't have any stress going on. Just deal with what you have to and do what you can. That is all anyone can expect of themselves.

 

[Stormynights]

I guess I am doing good. One wasn't really that bad considering how fast I went back to smoking after my sister died. Today I just tried so hard to do what my Mother would want me to do and then I realized that I never did anything right in her eyes. I do know that she loved me though. I think she was just so insecure herself. Today I felt like a little child again and it was so stressful.

 

[Jules22871]

I know when I lost my mom I felt pretty much the same way you are feeling right now. I think you are handling the smoking thing very well. I don't know if I could stick to vaping if I lost someone right now.

 

[Kate51]

Stormy, this too you will get through...my Mom is gone 13 years now, was devastating. I don't think I knew the meaning of that word until then.
Don't punish yourself for a smoke for heaven's sake, God bless you and your family.
You'd be surprised if you knew how much your mother does understand!
AND, I don't think anyone ever gets beyond age 16, not mentally anyway. We all carry that child around.

 

[harmony gardens]

My sympathies to you stormynights.

Don't worry about the cigarette,,,

 

[mamacat]

Stormy, Think of all the analogs you have NOT smoked! You are in my thoughts during this difficult time. I wish you all the best!

 

[Stormynights]

Thanks to everyone for the encouragement and support. I am embarrassed over my ranting last night but I feel so much better now. I am just thankful I had my whine here instead of around my family. Thanks again buddies. I know I will never go back to smoking.