First off, if this is in the wrong forum, please move my thread, thank you.
Objective:
I will be switching from smoking cigarettes, to using e-cig exclusively. I will be posting all of my progress on this thread. I will post the amt of cigs smoked, and the amt of ecig usage everyday, with corresponding nicotine strength in the next reply, and just keep adding to that reply for the log. All of my commentary and thoughts as this happens will be posted in new replies however, so if anyone wants to watch this happen, your going to have to read the entire thread.
Goals:
To find out if there is some alkaloid/MAOI/nicotine I want/need out of smoked tobacco, or to find out if its simply the act of a breathing ritual I can use everyday, multiple times a day. Also, this log will help enlighten people if tobacco (in various forms, but in my experience, smoked) helps in certain forms of depression/anxiety.
Background:
I have been smoking cigarettes for awhile now. Years... can't really say how long. But lets just say 5 years. So, if I was "addicted", then I was. I would generally feel I needed to smoke every hour. Sometimes half-hour. Sometimes I would smoke a couple at a time. First thing when I woke up, I -had- to. The last few months I was smoking a lot of roll-your-own organic american spirit tobacco. In general I would usually smoke either Nat Sherman, or American Spirit. Generally 10-15 a day. Thats a good estimate.
My addiction level:
First off I am not sure if I was addicted to Maoi's, alkaloids, nicotine, something in the smoke, or the simple act of breathing. That is the purpose of my Log.
When I smoked I did feel some sort of "relief"... I seemed to feel some relief of withdrawal, relief of -something-. Not sure what... but it seemed to definitely be there.
But it was like I needed to smoke, plain and simple. At work I would think about the timing of my next smoke break. I thought tobacco helped me function, helped me work better, etc etc... I was -never- out of tobacco, ever. There were no gaps in my smoking, for a very long time. Not even gaps of 4 hours.
Recent background of quitting:
About a month or more ago I tried quitting cigarettes. Here is what I remember. I didn't know what to do with myself. I craved cigarettes, sometimes very strongly. I started eating a lot more. Overtime, food started tasting better.
I seemed to not be able to deal with things as well. More anger. I would sleep a LOT. That was the first week mainly. I suppose I felt more tired. However I never really quit. I think there might have been one day I didn't smoke at all. But basically I got down to half-cigarette a day for a few days to a week. Can't really remember. But I kept up the half cigarette probably for a week and a half. Then for another few weeks was at either a half cig or 2 or 3 cigs per day.
About 3 weeks ago I started exercising, and have kept up that habit. That seemed to help me a lot.
It seems the last couple of weeks I was really struggling. I started noticing a depression that seemed to just grow and grow. (I have a history of depression, as I've written about in my other thread, and it was the same symptoms coming on). That was what led me to heavily researching this board, finally getting an ecig (got it yesterday), etc etc...
I was still bent on quitting cigs but decided to smoke a bit more. So for a week smoked 2-3 a day steady. Then started smoking 4 in a row and not smoking for 24 hours. Then recently I smoked 10 camel crushes in a row one morning (felt really kinda crappy from that). Today I smoked 6 cigarettes in a half-hour in the morning, and probably already 5 since then... So basically the jist of this, is that I didn't want the depression to get worse...so I've basically just kept smoking more and more. That seems to be what has happened the last few weeks. This is all hard to remember since I didn't log it.
Since I've upped my cigarette intake, the depression has basically vanished. It was getting bad for awhile there... thoughts of suicide, not wanting to live, everything was grey...etc etc... not all the time, but I noticed over the weeks the thoughts seemed to start increasing and my overall outlook on life was just getting greyer and greyer. Like I said I've dealt with depression for lets say, 10-15 years. I'm 29 right now. Many of those years I would feel the worst depression sometimes every second of everyday for years and years on end.
Basically I feel that 8 years ago when I started smoking tobacco I have not dealt with these symptoms. This could be explained by the MAOI's/alkaloids in tobacco smoke, or the simple act of developing a meditative smoking ritual to deal with life, or the nicotine. I don't know, and again, that is the purpose of this Log.
If depression comes back moving to vaping, I will know there is something in smoked tobacco, or tobacco alone.
I will start my log on the next reply.
Objective:
I will be switching from smoking cigarettes, to using e-cig exclusively. I will be posting all of my progress on this thread. I will post the amt of cigs smoked, and the amt of ecig usage everyday, with corresponding nicotine strength in the next reply, and just keep adding to that reply for the log. All of my commentary and thoughts as this happens will be posted in new replies however, so if anyone wants to watch this happen, your going to have to read the entire thread.
Goals:
To find out if there is some alkaloid/MAOI/nicotine I want/need out of smoked tobacco, or to find out if its simply the act of a breathing ritual I can use everyday, multiple times a day. Also, this log will help enlighten people if tobacco (in various forms, but in my experience, smoked) helps in certain forms of depression/anxiety.
Background:
I have been smoking cigarettes for awhile now. Years... can't really say how long. But lets just say 5 years. So, if I was "addicted", then I was. I would generally feel I needed to smoke every hour. Sometimes half-hour. Sometimes I would smoke a couple at a time. First thing when I woke up, I -had- to. The last few months I was smoking a lot of roll-your-own organic american spirit tobacco. In general I would usually smoke either Nat Sherman, or American Spirit. Generally 10-15 a day. Thats a good estimate.
My addiction level:
First off I am not sure if I was addicted to Maoi's, alkaloids, nicotine, something in the smoke, or the simple act of breathing. That is the purpose of my Log.
When I smoked I did feel some sort of "relief"... I seemed to feel some relief of withdrawal, relief of -something-. Not sure what... but it seemed to definitely be there.
But it was like I needed to smoke, plain and simple. At work I would think about the timing of my next smoke break. I thought tobacco helped me function, helped me work better, etc etc... I was -never- out of tobacco, ever. There were no gaps in my smoking, for a very long time. Not even gaps of 4 hours.
Recent background of quitting:
About a month or more ago I tried quitting cigarettes. Here is what I remember. I didn't know what to do with myself. I craved cigarettes, sometimes very strongly. I started eating a lot more. Overtime, food started tasting better.
I seemed to not be able to deal with things as well. More anger. I would sleep a LOT. That was the first week mainly. I suppose I felt more tired. However I never really quit. I think there might have been one day I didn't smoke at all. But basically I got down to half-cigarette a day for a few days to a week. Can't really remember. But I kept up the half cigarette probably for a week and a half. Then for another few weeks was at either a half cig or 2 or 3 cigs per day.
About 3 weeks ago I started exercising, and have kept up that habit. That seemed to help me a lot.
It seems the last couple of weeks I was really struggling. I started noticing a depression that seemed to just grow and grow. (I have a history of depression, as I've written about in my other thread, and it was the same symptoms coming on). That was what led me to heavily researching this board, finally getting an ecig (got it yesterday), etc etc...
I was still bent on quitting cigs but decided to smoke a bit more. So for a week smoked 2-3 a day steady. Then started smoking 4 in a row and not smoking for 24 hours. Then recently I smoked 10 camel crushes in a row one morning (felt really kinda crappy from that). Today I smoked 6 cigarettes in a half-hour in the morning, and probably already 5 since then... So basically the jist of this, is that I didn't want the depression to get worse...so I've basically just kept smoking more and more. That seems to be what has happened the last few weeks. This is all hard to remember since I didn't log it.
Since I've upped my cigarette intake, the depression has basically vanished. It was getting bad for awhile there... thoughts of suicide, not wanting to live, everything was grey...etc etc... not all the time, but I noticed over the weeks the thoughts seemed to start increasing and my overall outlook on life was just getting greyer and greyer. Like I said I've dealt with depression for lets say, 10-15 years. I'm 29 right now. Many of those years I would feel the worst depression sometimes every second of everyday for years and years on end.
Basically I feel that 8 years ago when I started smoking tobacco I have not dealt with these symptoms. This could be explained by the MAOI's/alkaloids in tobacco smoke, or the simple act of developing a meditative smoking ritual to deal with life, or the nicotine. I don't know, and again, that is the purpose of this Log.
If depression comes back moving to vaping, I will know there is something in smoked tobacco, or tobacco alone.
I will start my log on the next reply.
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