unplugged

[PatriciafromCO]

Today I unplugged my usb passthrough.. and trying to use the computer without vaping lol lol it's the last leg of phyisical habit to break... Too funny my 801's are laying right here and with out thinking I have picked them up to vape and realize when nothing happen that I had one in my hand don't even remember reaching and picking it up... ...I will plug it back in ,, in a little while.. Again will always be amazed it's not a (kill anything that gets near me panic any more for not having nic) It's a want,, it's a urge I am missing it,,, so don't get me wrong lol .... but it's not throat thrashing can't think of anything else.... I can still function which is oh so way cool...

 

[Mary Kay]

You are far ahead of me! I am trying to get lower and lower on nic. I still need my 11mg hit! Drat! I can get by on no nic or 6nic most of the day. But not all day!
But the good news is that I can go for long periods without any vaping at all. I am so pleased with that! No panic..as you said, just a want now and again. I also find the computer my downfall, along with driving! But I do ride a lot with Mike who switches between smoking and vaping. I need my nic nuck then..
keep it up and be our pin up for sucess!

 

[PatriciafromCO]

Thanks MaryKay,, and kudos for you for learning you can go without vaping too I think it's interesting to realize how you feel in different situations. (I'm plugged back in feel good that I could function) no doubt I will always enjoy vaping.. I truly hated feeling the world depended on having analogs, that you start worring when there was still 3 packs left) Get more and more excited how easy I feel letting go of situations I once felt tied to...

I did try the lower nics and I vaped alot,, I went back to the 18 and 24mg and get my fix and I can be done with vaping for hours.. Love my morning coffee & vape,, but I go do chores first with the animals then come back and just relax..

About every 30 or 45 days I have a werid feeling unbalanced type day that I don't feel centered... Good thing is I don't want to go buy analogs, and I am usually out and about which I stopped taking my e cig with me. I usually want to vape when I get in my truck to drive home but as soon as I start driving,, I forget about it... But on the days I just can't seem find balance,, that ((ping)) stays with me the entire drive home..

I kept telling my self this is all like an onion,, everything is layers and layers being peeled off over time...

 

[Mary Kay]

And do you know what is at the heart of a peeled onion? Onion!
One day I want to be done with E-cigs..but not yet! 6 months has been my goal, of course when I said that I thought Mike would be right behind me..as usual he has wandered off and I need to back track!
But even if I can't be vape free in 6 months, I can try to be nic free!

 

[PatriciafromCO]

""""do you know what is at the heart of a peeled onion? Onion!



My guess if it's and OutBack Blooming onion it will be all gone quickly..
lol

 

[Mary Kay]

True to form, Pat..alway seeing a silver lining! Outback's blooming onion!

But you are right, everyday is a new and hopefully better day! I feel better, look better and maybe soon I will be smoke/vape free!

You talked about being unbalanced..I always thought of those days as having the sound turned up too loud. Like things were moving too fast and I was a bit dazed. (ok ok..so what else is new..lol) I still have them once in a while but not like when i was a teen or young woman in her 20's. Now I can just pull the covers over my head and go back to sleep or tell Mike I am taking a "me" day. (meaning I am not going to deal with anything at all). Works for me!
He takes his days when a good golf or football game is on (a couple times a year).