I feel amazing.. It's just amazing.. Every time I shower, I stay showered.. Every time I brush my teeth, they stay brushed.. I love the feeling of being fresh out of the shower and having freshly brushed teeth. Well, now, instead of lasting ten minutes... these feelings last me all day.
I usually don't see any women from here. But thanks to vaping, I was so curious about how healthy I've been feeling that I went to see this lady I know in the next town. Man she just LOVES the lack of tobacco smells and tastes. Not only that, but my breathing and my energy is so much better .. I had such a good time I went back the next night.
For so long now thanks to my smoking and drinking and living a sedentary lifestyle .. I've felt tired, sluggish and dead. Like a dead animal on the side of the road. My physical and mental condition have weakened and weakened since 2003.
vaping has caused me to not smoke. Not smoking has caused my mind and body to work amazingly well. Took ten years off of me or more!! Feeling so much better has even encouraged me to stay away from fast food and excessive red meat I'm not supposed to eat because of my kidneys. I've been eating huge salads, bananas, mushrooms, broccoli and .... like that. I feel great.
Today I am going to start working out.. I've heard that it jump starts my tired old brain and might actually do me some good. When I was smoking and drinking all of the time, what was the point? Now?
I feel like I love the new me and it's just exciting seeing that there can be improvement. You know, I am twenty seven years old, and I've lived the past seven years as if I were SEVENTY!!!
I've allowed myself to lose all sorts of physical and mental ability. I let myself be without health and money. I could have been SO MUCH BETTER for myself, my loved ones and my lady friends. Now, I will be. I've got a pile of talent I haven't tapped in YEARS. I've been weak and complacent.
It got to the point where I even stopped thinking about money and sex completely. I don't know how that ever happened. But it WON'T happen again!! I miss having money and I like to be a wild dirt animal of a man! Why would I ever forget to be myself?
Smoking cigarettes and drinking are NOT worth it.. AT ALL. I've missed a-lot and have a-lot of catching up to do.
I do not intend on giving up my old soul tastes in women or music or automobiles or guns or anything else but I AM giving up the old man mentality. I realize now that I have plenty of time for that LATER.
I know that I have a limited life span because I have bad kidneys. I probably won't live to be near half of what most of you will. And I've wasted the past 7 years. The only good thing I can say is that I've had a-lot of good times, enjoyed some amazing women and changed lives for the better. I'm damned proud of that but I now realize HEY what about ME.. MY TURN BABY!!!!
Man, we all need to be so thankful we're here and that we have a chance to do so many things in life. I'm not going to waste another second.
Goals for me..
1. Stop sitting around the house when I run out of money because I think I "have to". I'm going to stay busy EVERY DAY and move forward.
2. Own a home. I miss my house and I'm tired of hearing about it from myself. At least I didn't lose it for the standard reason these days. I never paid "way too much" for a house or bought "too much house".
3. Pay off my sisters house and find a way to buy her out of her job. She's working for hourly money, putting herself through college and trying to raise my adorable little sister in law.
4. Get back into a Cadillac. Not being in one for the first time in my life this year has been another big wake-up call. Maybe losing my house should have been?? LoL over here.
5. Be healthy and eat coherent natural things. Not going to become a vegetarian .. I don't get along with them .. But going to take much better care of my kidney. Drink far fewer beers and rum drinks. Far less Soda or Coffee. I've been drinking gallons of water lately and I feel great.
6. Finally get around to some revenge projects I've been sitting on. I always wait a year or two but it's TIME for these two people. I can't wait. Revenge is like a comical game, for me, like a sport. Like football for the rest of ya - but better
7. Play more poker. I miss playing cards often and it's educational. Plus it's profitable when I can play Omaha8. Omaha8 gained me 10lbs in 30 days when I was jailed. I love poker. You learn so much about human nature and it's always a good time.
8. Exercise more often. Be more active. Jumpstart brain cells I haven't used in years. Become a wild animal who can
for hours until a woman can't breathe and all but passes out.
9. Buy some of my guns back. Go out shooting more often. Get my CCW. Never be without my gun again.
10. Learn some advanced fighting techniques. If my lady friends know them.. so should I. Plus, it's going to be great for self discipline. I always prided myself on my level of self discipline. I will, again!
That's it, for now
Some of you may think I'm rambling but I know that some of you will take something from this ... good luck to you and remember YOU determine your reality. I forgot that somewhere along the way and where I've put myself IS NOT pretty. But I wouldn't trade places with any human being. I got my life stripes the hard way through hard knocks and I love who and what I am!!!
NEVER take the easy way out.. I could have gotten on a plane any time this year and ran away from all of my problems. I could, today. Free! But I knew all along - this is the way, MY WAY.
Okay I'll jump down off of the box and shut up my keys
Thanks for allowing me a chance to ramble at you all
I usually don't see any women from here. But thanks to vaping, I was so curious about how healthy I've been feeling that I went to see this lady I know in the next town. Man she just LOVES the lack of tobacco smells and tastes. Not only that, but my breathing and my energy is so much better .. I had such a good time I went back the next night.
For so long now thanks to my smoking and drinking and living a sedentary lifestyle .. I've felt tired, sluggish and dead. Like a dead animal on the side of the road. My physical and mental condition have weakened and weakened since 2003.
vaping has caused me to not smoke. Not smoking has caused my mind and body to work amazingly well. Took ten years off of me or more!! Feeling so much better has even encouraged me to stay away from fast food and excessive red meat I'm not supposed to eat because of my kidneys. I've been eating huge salads, bananas, mushrooms, broccoli and .... like that. I feel great.
Today I am going to start working out.. I've heard that it jump starts my tired old brain and might actually do me some good. When I was smoking and drinking all of the time, what was the point? Now?
I feel like I love the new me and it's just exciting seeing that there can be improvement. You know, I am twenty seven years old, and I've lived the past seven years as if I were SEVENTY!!!
I've allowed myself to lose all sorts of physical and mental ability. I let myself be without health and money. I could have been SO MUCH BETTER for myself, my loved ones and my lady friends. Now, I will be. I've got a pile of talent I haven't tapped in YEARS. I've been weak and complacent.
It got to the point where I even stopped thinking about money and sex completely. I don't know how that ever happened. But it WON'T happen again!! I miss having money and I like to be a wild dirt animal of a man! Why would I ever forget to be myself?
Smoking cigarettes and drinking are NOT worth it.. AT ALL. I've missed a-lot and have a-lot of catching up to do.
I do not intend on giving up my old soul tastes in women or music or automobiles or guns or anything else but I AM giving up the old man mentality. I realize now that I have plenty of time for that LATER.
I know that I have a limited life span because I have bad kidneys. I probably won't live to be near half of what most of you will. And I've wasted the past 7 years. The only good thing I can say is that I've had a-lot of good times, enjoyed some amazing women and changed lives for the better. I'm damned proud of that but I now realize HEY what about ME.. MY TURN BABY!!!!
Man, we all need to be so thankful we're here and that we have a chance to do so many things in life. I'm not going to waste another second.
Goals for me..
1. Stop sitting around the house when I run out of money because I think I "have to". I'm going to stay busy EVERY DAY and move forward.
2. Own a home. I miss my house and I'm tired of hearing about it from myself. At least I didn't lose it for the standard reason these days. I never paid "way too much" for a house or bought "too much house".
3. Pay off my sisters house and find a way to buy her out of her job. She's working for hourly money, putting herself through college and trying to raise my adorable little sister in law.
4. Get back into a Cadillac. Not being in one for the first time in my life this year has been another big wake-up call. Maybe losing my house should have been?? LoL over here.
5. Be healthy and eat coherent natural things. Not going to become a vegetarian .. I don't get along with them .. But going to take much better care of my kidney. Drink far fewer beers and rum drinks. Far less Soda or Coffee. I've been drinking gallons of water lately and I feel great.
6. Finally get around to some revenge projects I've been sitting on. I always wait a year or two but it's TIME for these two people. I can't wait. Revenge is like a comical game, for me, like a sport. Like football for the rest of ya - but better
7. Play more poker. I miss playing cards often and it's educational. Plus it's profitable when I can play Omaha8. Omaha8 gained me 10lbs in 30 days when I was jailed. I love poker. You learn so much about human nature and it's always a good time.
8. Exercise more often. Be more active. Jumpstart brain cells I haven't used in years. Become a wild animal who can
for hours until a woman can't breathe and all but passes out.9. Buy some of my guns back. Go out shooting more often. Get my CCW. Never be without my gun again.
10. Learn some advanced fighting techniques. If my lady friends know them.. so should I. Plus, it's going to be great for self discipline. I always prided myself on my level of self discipline. I will, again!
That's it, for now
Some of you may think I'm rambling but I know that some of you will take something from this ... good luck to you and remember YOU determine your reality. I forgot that somewhere along the way and where I've put myself IS NOT pretty. But I wouldn't trade places with any human being. I got my life stripes the hard way through hard knocks and I love who and what I am!!!
NEVER take the easy way out.. I could have gotten on a plane any time this year and ran away from all of my problems. I could, today. Free! But I knew all along - this is the way, MY WAY.
Okay I'll jump down off of the box and shut up my keys
Thanks for allowing me a chance to ramble at you all
