Lil follow-up from me:
It's been 4-5 days since my Riva showed up. Also the Carto's and extra test flavors arrived on Saturday.
I mentioned this ever so slightly on a past post, but the last time I tried to quit smoking was around 10 years ago. People say quitting smoking for those who are addicted is much like a heroine or coccain addict trying to quit.
There was a scene in an old 90's movies called "New Jack City" where a very young Chris Rock played an addict trying to quit. It always stuck in my mind because of his convulsions, sweating, heavy breathing, and overall he portrayed really well that even though he was trying to get past his addiction, it was the only thing on his mind, and was too much for him to handle. It was a here today, gone tomorrow type movie, but that scene always stayed with me.
I always portrayed that scene with my own attempts at trying to quit. For the months I tried to stop, smoking was all that was on my mind…. and it never left. Day after day my stomach would churn, I would sweat profusely, and all my whole body mind and soul wanted a cigarette.
Even with the Patches and Gum, there was something I really really needed in that smoke. This monster of an addiction was too big for me to handle and I finally just gave up and swore never to try this again. As sad as it sounds it felt like a long lost love had finally returned when I took my first Puff, and I promised her I would never try to leave again.
Since my Riva and E-liquids showed up I have only had 2 cigarettes, and the last two days have not had one. Granted, not much time has passed, but this is the least I have smoked for a very very long time, and I am really proud of that…. heck my wife is even proud of that.
I can only see it going forward from here. I'm excited when I wake up to Vape Away, it almost feels like I am cheating the "Quitting system" somehow. So many here have said how the E-cig was the answer they were looking for when all other options failed. Like the Holy Grail for those wanting to quite analogs. I was apprehensive and suspicious to say the least.
But doing this myself, I realize how real this all is. As sappy as it sounds it's like the world opened up just a little larger to options I closed off decades ago. Resigning yourself to your addictions is an empty place to be in. It's where I lived for sooo long. The day is just a tad bit brighter now, and I can only see it getting brighter.
This isn't a farewell well eulogy. I'll still be here reading up on everything, and putting in my two cents for what it is worth. But I wanted to give you all one more big "Thank You" for the support and knowledge here. I think without it, I would have passed off E-cigs as a gimmick and as a passing fad. You guys (and gals) I am sure are a big reason why people give quitting another shot, and it gives them the strength to try again when they thought it was impossible.
Keep up the good work all! I will also.
