Running Wolf - I'm worried about doing what you just did, especially with Annette taking a well deserved vacation over the Holidays. I'm trying to figure out how much to order, but being a newbie I tend to grossly miscalculate lol.
Running Wolf - I'm worried about doing what you just did, especially with Annette taking a well deserved vacation over the Holidays. I'm trying to figure out how much to order, but being a newbie I tend to grossly miscalculate lol.
Larkfour, I hope you feel safe here. There are so many loving people here who are here to support and not judge you. I understand your fear of this time of year that brings back your grief, having gone through something similar myself. Be gentle with yourself! Our hearts are with you!Since I have smoked for 39 years, and used cigarettes (I don't drink alcohol) to deal with every emotional up and down in my life, quitting smoking is going to require learning some new coping skills for me. I made it 4 full 24 hours without a ciggie and have shown myself that vaping is a way for me to completely quit analogs.
I am choosing to go back to my morning and evening ciggie until after the Holidays. This is not because I am weak but because I am afraid.
The Holidays have moments laden with grief for me, having lost my father, grandfather and grandmother during this time period and to be perfectly honest I am very unsure whether I know how to fully deal with grief without resorting to a cigarette.
(returned to delete post as I feel rather exposed now ...hmmm leave or delete?)
Since I have smoked for 39 years, and used cigarettes (I don't drink alcohol) to deal with every emotional up and down in my life, quitting smoking is going to require learning some new coping skills for me. I made it 4 full 24 hours without a ciggie and have shown myself that vaping is a way for me to completely quit analogs.
I am choosing to go back to my morning and evening ciggie until after the Holidays. This is not because I am weak but because I am afraid.
The Holidays have moments laden with grief for me, having lost my father, grandfather and grandmother during this time period and to be perfectly honest I am very unsure whether I know how to fully deal with grief without resorting to a cigarette.
(returned to delete post as I feel rather exposed now ...hmmm leave or delete?)
Since I have smoked for 39 years, and used cigarettes (I don't drink alcohol) to deal with every emotional up and down in my life, quitting smoking is going to require learning some new coping skills for me. I made it 4 full 24 hours without a ciggie and have shown myself that vaping is a way for me to completely quit analogs.
I am choosing to go back to my morning and evening ciggie until after the Holidays. This is not because I am weak but because I am afraid.
The Holidays have moments laden with grief for me, having lost my father, grandfather and grandmother during this time period and to be perfectly honest I am very unsure whether I know how to fully deal with grief without resorting to a cigarette.
(returned to delete post as I feel rather exposed now ...hmmm leave or delete?)