My 2 week hiatus was not just because of finals. I was not trying to quit before - I had just run out of money and could not afford to buy smokes. It was the week before finals and the highest stress time of a student. I had my ecig and was grateful for the fallback even if it sucked (xhale02 from 7/11). I did not have a high enough nic juice and was having the usual withdrawl symptoms. Mix that with the stress of finals and I was a mess. Still, I had made it almost through day two and was already feeling better.
My boyfriend is a health conscious non smoker (he quit many years ago). He hated seeing how miserable I was and with the best of intentions bought an entire carton and put them right in front of me. He meant to give me enough to last through finals. I flipped out on him and literally threw them across the room. I was in tears!! I left the house to cool down a bit. Gritting my teeth against the cravings I told him to return it. Unfortunately they would not be able to take them back until Monday (when the manager got in). I caved and knew I could never make it through 3 days staring at a carton!! I NEVER once have bought a carton in my entire 7 years smoking a pack a day. Silly I know but I felt like I was somehow committing to being a smoker for a longer period of time if I did. Well of course I know he meant well and I am not at all angry at him. It was just so utterly frustrating to have made it that far! I am one of those people who when I try and quit I cant even leave the house for the first 3 days. Social isolation and I have to be entirely broke with NO access to money.
So I guess this is a word of warning to others who may be considering quitting with the help of ecigs. Please warn the people who love you that no matter how miserable you are they just have to let you suffer. Encouragement, love and patience is the best thing they can give you!
**I am now trying again. This time around with the right level of nic juice (which has made a HUGE difference) as well as no stress (summer break). Its day 2 and my goal is to be free of the need for nicotine by the 30th of this month. We are moving and the new place will be entirely without triggers that make me want to smoke. I want to keep it that way.
My boyfriend is a health conscious non smoker (he quit many years ago). He hated seeing how miserable I was and with the best of intentions bought an entire carton and put them right in front of me. He meant to give me enough to last through finals. I flipped out on him and literally threw them across the room. I was in tears!! I left the house to cool down a bit. Gritting my teeth against the cravings I told him to return it. Unfortunately they would not be able to take them back until Monday (when the manager got in). I caved and knew I could never make it through 3 days staring at a carton!! I NEVER once have bought a carton in my entire 7 years smoking a pack a day. Silly I know but I felt like I was somehow committing to being a smoker for a longer period of time if I did. Well of course I know he meant well and I am not at all angry at him. It was just so utterly frustrating to have made it that far! I am one of those people who when I try and quit I cant even leave the house for the first 3 days. Social isolation and I have to be entirely broke with NO access to money.
So I guess this is a word of warning to others who may be considering quitting with the help of ecigs. Please warn the people who love you that no matter how miserable you are they just have to let you suffer. Encouragement, love and patience is the best thing they can give you!
**I am now trying again. This time around with the right level of nic juice (which has made a HUGE difference) as well as no stress (summer break). Its day 2 and my goal is to be free of the need for nicotine by the 30th of this month. We are moving and the new place will be entirely without triggers that make me want to smoke. I want to keep it that way.
