It can only be a good thing that you've cut back on the Mt Dew that much....I don't think I could handle more than one a day though. I have a SIL that likes them as much as you do, but she's a very laid-back type. I can't imagine her ever being anxious about anything.
I had to really practice the breathing thing, as I couldn't do it at first. Then I got the hang of it, and it really made a huge difference. I had to actually count slowly 1, 2, 3, 4, while I was doing it. I know and hate that feeling of not being able to get a nice deep breath, though. Maybe your doc would have a better method of teaching proper breathing to you, you should ask.
The only drug I took for my anxiety was Xanax (thank God for whoever invented that drug). Now for my depression, that's another story !
Yes, I've been on the Mt. Dew since high school (over 20 years) so I'm pretty much immune to the caffeine rush, it just keeps me from getting a headache these days. I just love the taste of it! It doesn't "wake me up" or any such thing like it does most people. I can drink one and go straight to sleep...same with coffee or anything else.
I've noticed all this week, it seems to be around 8 pm, and I can't breathe right. So I take a whole Xanax (psych wanted me to cut down to at least 1/2 a one 3 times a day), and within 1/2 hour, I can breathe fine again.
I have an appt with a therapist on the 23rd to see if she can help me find other ways to deal with things...breathing is going to have to be on that list. I told my psych that I needed more than just meds, because even with meds, I'm having panic attacks and episodes. I need behavioral therapy or something....she agreed.
Not sure how long I'll be able to keep up with all these meds though, and the psych and therapist will have to end at the end of the month unfortunately...got my Cobra papers yesterday and it's over $400 a month to keep my
insurance on me. I can't do that. I don't even know if I'm going to get unemployment yet. I have to pay it for this month, because I've already had a few doc appts that will be more than that, so it's actually cheaper for me to pay the Cobra this month, but after that...I guess I'm back to my $4 Paxil and Xanax. UGH! Life is really just not fair sometimes.
I'm still not stressing though. (those mood stabilizers work REALLY WELL LOL!) It just pisses me off that when I finally do the right things for myself and my well being, I get shot down. Finally do something that MIGHT work, and now I'll just have to work on tapering OFF the drugs!! Bleh. And then what?? Just wait for more panic attacks? And just deal with them?? Will I ever have a "normal" life again? Can I hold a job now and work
thru/past the panic attacks?? I've never had a panic attack before this year and it really messed me up. Maybe the next one won't be so bad?? I don't know... Sorry, just sorta going off on a tangent there I guess. And I agree, thank gawd for Xananx!