Good morning FinchX.
You don't have to explain to me. So far, you've proven to be a perfect gentleman and did a better job at it then I ever could and I still like you.
Though you do realize we talk an awful lot about God, Jesus, Bible, prayer, and Christian teaching and if you have any questions, I would try to answer them if possible.
Good morning to you as well!
I was simply trying to explain I meant no harm, disrespect, nor did I mean to infringe upon anyone, it was in fact an honest mistake.
None of the aforementioned you listed bothers me. I actually get along quite well with most Christians if they're willing to give me the chance to clarify I have no intentions of disrespecting their beliefs.
And I do really appreciate the offer to answer any questions I might have regarding Christianity. Believe it or not I'm very highly educated in a biblical sense. Like I said, I believe in my original post, I'm actually rather envious of the faith Christians are capable of. I've spoken with many youth leaders when I was younger, as well as quite a few preachers in my adult years, as well as studied much of the bible, and unfortunately as I've stated, I simply don't seem to have the capacity for such faith. It's my personal belief that the concept of a deity watching over us, as well as an afterlife are both very fine things.
My mental ailments more or less force me to be driven highly by logic and scrutinizing analysis. Which, for me anyway, seem to make faith a difficult thing to achieve. As mentioned before, I don't typically bring them up, but I know Christians to be very understanding and sympathetic, and from what I've seen in this thread alone it holds true even here on ECF. But I am in fact a diagnosed psychopath.
That doesn't mean I'm going to kill people or any other stereotype associated with the illness. It simply means my thought processes and the way my brain handles typical human emotion are different.
I've been through my fair share of difficult times in my 31 years here, and having a deity to look up to, speak to, and ask for help from could have been very useful, hence the reason I tried so hard to reach that point up until about the age of 25 or 26 if I'm not mistaken. And it was a quest I chased after my entire life to that point. When I was 5 the Sunday school teacher literally asked my grandparents (who raised me after my parents divorced and bailed) to please either sit down and have a long discussion with me, or at the very least, request that I stopped asking so many questions (mostly about the Old Testament) because I was "raising doubt in the other children by doing so." lol... So like I said, it was a rather long journey that I simply couldn't arrive at personally.
