Ok, another update: BEWARE this will be a rambling one for SURE.
Had a few cigs yesterday, not beating myself up for it. HORRIBLE night last night. Went to bed 11:30ish.....tossed and turned FOREVER. Last time I looked at the clock it was 2:00. Finally fell asleep, woke up at 4:30, (all that bleeping water I drank yesterday!!!! so I didn't get dehydrated), back to bed, tossed and turned.........CRAP! Up at 5:30 making coffee.......
Now on to analizing the crap out of why this happened so it doesn't happen again or at the very least..... Oh I don't know....Like I said, rambling. Sleep deprevation doesn't work well with me. I am usually a very heavy sleeper 8 hours straight. Well now that I am old, 7 hours straight. Even sleep through sever thunderstorms LOL.
oh yeah, the analizing thing, Hmm vaped, I wonder......... Checking.....nope, thought I had the solution. Little bit of a racing heart when I went to bed, but the new liquid is the same 18mg of nic. Thought I might have put in the higher 24 and that might have caused the whatever....
Might have had too much nic by having that last cig before bed. AARRRGGGGHHH. I WILL FIGURE THIS OUT
No one needs to reply to this rambling madness. Just venting er working through my thoughts. Hopefully someone else went through the same thing or will go through the same thing and will know that they are not alone in this HELL that is called getting off cigarettes.
Oh how many times can I backspace before settling on what I want to type?!? HUNDREDS
Yes rambling for sure..... LOL How many times can I see that yellow autosave come up before posting this?!
Discuss amongst yourselves if this person can be saved. Who will call for the white jacket people to come and get me? Hell of an adventure, but hey, I took this step. Let's hope tonight is better.