A true test of willpower...

[landlocked]

My willpower was really put to the test last night, and continuing still.... for all of my Oklahoma people, you may have seen on the news yesterday about the trench collapse in Mcloud, Ok. on a construction site... one of the men killed was my cousin... only 32 years old. If there was ever a time for me to break, that was it. I was out of most everything, broke down and lit a cigarette... it almost make me puke. It's sooo minor and irrelevant in the grand scheme of things, but it's just another reminder that I will never go back to them, and I value my life and my family far too much to ever do so again. My heart is broken today, but I'm not.

 

[Pawpaw]

My condolences to you and your family.

I know that sounds hollow, but I can't think of anything else. My heart really goes out to you.

 

[gregsgirl71]

Oh My Gosh.... I am soooo sorry! Many prayers and well wishes to you and your family......

 

[Cancer]

my sincerest condolences on the untimely passing of your cousin. As well as a big THUMBS UP for not giving in to the fiery cigarette demon.

 

[CES]

My thoughts are with you, your family and all of those who lost loved ones. I love your statement: "My heart's broken but I'm not"

 

[kdcaines]

I am so sorry Landlocked, that's just horrible. My condolences to you and your family.

 

[Jules22871]

I am so sorry to hear that. Your family has my thoughts and prayers. Just remember, you have a bunch of people here for you.

 

[CatsNflowers]

So sorry to hear this...prayers for you and your family for comfort and strenght during this sad time.

 

[JenJen]

So very sorry for your family's loss! That kind of pain is hard to imagine, you are all in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[landlocked]

Thanks guys.

 

[thelook]

I am so very sorry, my thoughts are with you and your family.

 

[rpgman]

my thoughts are with you and your family.

I'm also glad you didn't didn't smoke that cig.
Very Very proud of you.

 

[Trish342]

I am so sorry. I will be thinking of you and your family.

 

[MeMa]

So sorry about your loss - may loving memories surround and comfort you.

 

[martha1014]

I know how hard this is (I have loss love one) and how painful. Your heart feels like it is breaking. Hang in there it will get easier as time goes on. Very sorry for your loss. THis will definitally make everyone stop and think how precious life is.

 

[Majhano]

So sorry to hear about the loss of your cousin. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Be strong

 

[Michelle43]

I have not read the news on that story yet but will be looking it up.

I am so sorry for your loss, doesn't seem fair. You and your family will be in my prayers.

 

[Jeff78]

I'm so sorry to hear this LL. If there is anything you need, just let us know. My prayers are with you and your family.

 

[Apophis]

OMG that's terrible. I am really sorry to hear about your loss. Remember, he may not be among the living, but he is still living in your memories.

 

[bornagainst]

sending ya big hugs and love Landlocked.