Yeah, I take pills for that stuff. I have "Anxiety Disorder, NOS" which means they can't figure out what the heck is wrong with me.
When I first got my e-cig, I was totally worried about the nicotine increasing my heart rate, if my heart rate goes up, I panic because I am certain I will die. This is probably TMI, but whatever. It's late, I'm tired, blah blah blah.
It's weird to worry about it because, logically, these things are better for your health than an analog. But on the other hand, you KNOW what an analog does to you, the e-cig is an unknown and that's kinda freaky.
I wore gloves while handling the liquid, I try to vape low to no nic just for the fact that I flip out if I spill it on my hand, plus that ridiculous increased heart rate thing. I still worry what these things do to me, but, as I see it, it's better than smoking a Camel light.
I feel bad for you because, yeah, panic attacks suck. And having them return after such a long break must have been a bit unsettling, to say the least.
"Having anxiety attacks about having anxiety attacks" is actually called Panic Disorder.
Stimulants (like caffiene and nicotine, niether of which I can manage to keep away from) are bound to increase previously existing anxiety. Doctors tell me to quit the coffee all the time, but I won't do it. If I just have one cup, I'm fine, two or three or four too close to one another, and I can't go anywhere or do anything or think straight because the anxiety gets so bad.
Anything in moderation. . .
Anyway, I don't know what the point of this post was for me. Maybe try low or zero nic. I used the patches to quit for six weeks and did so successfully, but went absolutely crazy and missed my habit so I went to e-cigs. I like them, but, like you (just not as severe) they worry me a bit. So maybe try zero nic juice and a patch at the same time? Using juice with nicotine AND a patch would be a terrible idea, so I would go with zero nic, satisfy your mental addiction and the habit portion of it with the e-cig, and get the nicotine from the patch? Just a suggestion.
Also, e-cigs DON'T have the other crap in them that analogs do. An analog is almost like smoking an anti-depressant. Nicotine stimulates dopamine receptors in the brain and then there's these added chemicals that inhibit MAOI receptors.
I went batsh** when I quit, anxiety through the roof, crazy mood swings. It was awful, even with the patch, the habit was not there, that was crucial for me to have, apparently.
Geez, I rambled. Someone feel free to remove this if you want.