Yup. If there is anything my cross country trip with COVID taught me it is, "F"

k off mankind."
I include myself at times, I could have been nicer. I wasn't.
Right now I am detoxing and shot myself in the foot by writing a HORRIBLE email to my doctor who is probably like "I am not going to help her at ALL."
If this is the case, it means rapid detox off all things, well two of them anyway I might as well get it ALL over with before work and with a lot of clonidine. This is what I am thinking if like, my doctor won't fill my scripts. Just get it ALL done starting today and I can see how I am before work.
Ugh.
I feel like this:
Also:
Man.... I wish I had not told my doctor that he was CULPABLE in the current prescription mess, not me, and that he had a responsibility to his patients which he FAILED and all the wide eyed little psychiatrists and pain clinics who thought what the politicians were doing was GOOD could also now reap what they sowed and how did he like it?
That was probably not good. Especially since the above was a SUPER brief summary; GOD.
It was probably ALSO not good to mention the fact that if I had to go to the psych unit instead of my work I would kill myself creatively like, twice. That is probably not a good thing to include in a "please give me my meds email,." I mean, I don't sound very stable even to me. GOD.
I wish I had waited to send it, l would have not sent it. Oh, it's BAD.
Like I said, I gonna be detoxing from 2 things at once.
Husband is like finding all these apartments and he asked if I wanted to go and I gave him the weariest eye and like, he agreed to go on his own. I don't care where we live. I was just like, "Honey find me a place I can rapid detox in because there will be clonidine aplenty in my future I got to stop everything TODAY so I can be sort of okay by Monday." That's the idea anyway.
To be fair to me, the email was right before the closet but Mannnnnnn.
Oh I don't really think I should be consuming resources. Did you know SW started as "Friendly Visitors," only they were evaluating which poor and degenerates deserved to be euthanized or at the least, um, sterilized? If I encountered MYSELF back in the good old days I bet I'd be dead or at least unable to reproduce.
Cool.
Anna