Deeper Thoughts & Inner Weirdom 2
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Quit listening to yourself, start talking to yourself.
I should have listened to my fears, LOL, yesterday's pre employment screening went exactly the opposite of how you want. Oh I'm done railing and crying about it, I only needed one night, but I so should have listened to myself. LOL.
Anna
Recessive genome in the family tree..
What R I missing, she say nuffin bad, R I missing somethingstuff a what in her???!!?
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These ice-cold Whisky dispensers were once popular in office buildings during the 1950's
Done listening to self, I listened to my pdoc's advice (report what happened to those who wanted to hire you, AND to those who gave you bad advice) and my sis the lawyer, "You can get this expunged, probably, with the information you have, but do it through legal aid, you are legally under the definition of "destitute" LOL, so true. Even though I know about legal aid, it wouldn't have occurred to me honestly, because my brain went to Traumaville.
I actually got a reasonably pleasant response from high up lady who wanted to hire me and a non-apology apology (we are both SW, and while remaining pleasant certainly there was certainly enough legalize type stuff that she could ONLY offer that type of apology, not a "we did anything wrong" one, I don't even blame her for that she is sending to head of HR for review and told me I'd hear something in a couple of days.
Pdoc also gave me the human equivalent of horse tranquilizers and etc., I feel much less like dying today and I only smoked ONE cigarette yesterday, LOL, counting it as a win. He also (unsolicited) gave me his cellphone number and an offer to intercede with the jail folks if needed (he knows them) but I kept involuntarily crying and noting that it wasn't exactly depression but agitation going on AND that the only thing keeping me from actively seeking death was like, the kiddo's presence, and he's moving. I do realize the kiddo's place on the globe would be unaffected by such an act, but man, it somehow seems easier. I did ;point out it was mostly agitation and anxiety doing me in, not true depression, but he still said to call in a week and etc. Sigh.
I do feel slightly better and have two nanny "things" this week, if of them wants to hire me, well, I'm doin it. I don't even care about the other stuff as that is far from a safe bet, and even if I GET an offer (oh so unlikely) well, if I commit to a nanny I just may well say "F it," life steered me THIS way, and indicate I can like, go back to SW anytime I like. Because I will not accept ANY childacre job without agreeing to a time frame, it's bad for the kid honestly.
So yeah, suppressing any and all negative thoughts, LOL, I am shoving corks so far in my ears, nose, mouth etc., that I may find smoking, vaping OR breathing difficult.
But the horse tranqs are working so there's that. Etc.
Anna
I actually got a reasonably pleasant response from high up lady who wanted to hire me and a non-apology apology (we are both SW, and while remaining pleasant certainly there was certainly enough legalize type stuff that she could ONLY offer that type of apology, not a "we did anything wrong" one, I don't even blame her for that she is sending to head of HR for review and told me I'd hear something in a couple of days.
Pdoc also gave me the human equivalent of horse tranquilizers and etc., I feel much less like dying today and I only smoked ONE cigarette yesterday, LOL, counting it as a win. He also (unsolicited) gave me his cellphone number and an offer to intercede with the jail folks if needed (he knows them) but I kept involuntarily crying and noting that it wasn't exactly depression but agitation going on AND that the only thing keeping me from actively seeking death was like, the kiddo's presence, and he's moving. I do realize the kiddo's place on the globe would be unaffected by such an act, but man, it somehow seems easier. I did ;point out it was mostly agitation and anxiety doing me in, not true depression, but he still said to call in a week and etc. Sigh.
I do feel slightly better and have two nanny "things" this week, if of them wants to hire me, well, I'm doin it. I don't even care about the other stuff as that is far from a safe bet, and even if I GET an offer (oh so unlikely) well, if I commit to a nanny I just may well say "F it," life steered me THIS way, and indicate I can like, go back to SW anytime I like. Because I will not accept ANY childacre job without agreeing to a time frame, it's bad for the kid honestly.
So yeah, suppressing any and all negative thoughts, LOL, I am shoving corks so far in my ears, nose, mouth etc., that I may find smoking, vaping OR breathing difficult.
But the horse tranqs are working so there's that. Etc.
Anna
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These ice-cold Whisky dispensers were once popular in office buildings during the 1950's
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