Deeper Thoughts & Inner Weirdom 2

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Jesus. From now on I am going to say, "Well, I'm mediocre. You want me, definitely, but you do NOT want to expedite ANYTHING and there should be no working on the weekends by accident because, that's not necessary. YOU want me, but I am not in deep demand, and I will tolerate a lengthy credential process no worries at all."
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Don't say you are mediocre. Why would anyone want to hire someone with that self evaluation?
 

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I was kidding. I totally always lead with that at any job interview if asked, "Why should we hire you for X position." It tells me a) if they get my sense of humor (although I am fairly awesome) it embodies my belief in myself that if *I* do not like uh, believe in myself, I am not going to do a good job, I am not going to strive for AWESOMENESS and even more importantly there are some folks who are SO DEEP in the hole, you got to reach in and say I can tug hard, you gotta grab onto the tunnel walls, man. But as long as you push a millimeter I will not let you fall," Marsha Linhahan, goddess of therapy, taught me that. I was lucky enough to train with her in DBT and she talked about the dialectic of believing in yourself as the therapist, while helping the patient believe in themselves, via your belief for them. She then had us do one of her damn "Mindfulness participation exercises" and it was to dance (along with your trainees, in an imaginary dance of your choosing, with any person living or dead) which as I am sure you can imagine started out hesitantly.

Then she informed us whenever she danced, she would imagine dancing with every single mental patient currently incarcerated. Having been involuntarily locked up for like 7 weeks one time,. I began bawling my eyes out that someone could be that INCREDIBLE. Well, I guess she's a Zen monk too they think deep things like that. But when I think of those 7 weeks and what they were like I tear up, knowing that somewhere, someone might be dancing with me, and I didn't even know it. I always cry. They were some of the worst weeks of my life, I have had a few.

So trust me there is plenty more AWESOME out there than me, but like, I DO want people to unabashedly know a) I don't think I suck and even going there is losing half the battle or whatever. If they like it, it's a good interview. If they act like you are a nut job, you do NOT want to work there.

So the VA ,they loved the answer I guess but maybe a little too much. I mean, I thought I would have 3-4 months to prepare. THEY ARE EXPEDITING MY APPLICATION THEY ARE MAKNG CREDENTIALERS WORK ON WEEKENDS I AM NOT READY and I CAN'T SLOW IT DOWN.

I don't want to do it so fast. So my second response is sarcastic. It just it is what it is. Maybe a meteor is gonna hit in Douglas or something WHO KNOWS.

But yeah, I will continue to ask the question but I will ALSO not be "guided": by the government OEM process for hiring it is clear they can move MUCH faster when they want to. Jesus.

Well I suppose they can set off nuclear bombs in one night, that is moving scary fast.

I just don't want to leave the husband alone to do all the packing and ARGH.

Anna

Fortunately, "Rehab Anna" is coming right along. I thought I would hurt insanely, but I asked my "Creator please be my flesh and I will be my bones." (I don't have arthritis is why I asked that. I also told my Creator I was certain it had better balance than me, but that I had more EXPERIENCE with falling, so I would handle that side of things.) So yoga was great 7 am day 3 approaches baby and it is SATRUDAY and I am also gonna vacuum and mop the floors. I will get through this vile temporal anomaly.
 

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life goes on, it's all just a stream of possibilities.
 

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Oh no... Well, it is what it is.

I feel more chill but it's day 3 of rehabilitation at 7 am. Also, day three involves doing enough to keep you sort of moving (shopping, cleaning, no mental tasks.)

I hate that I know this progression but I have gone through "Rehabilitate Anna" on several occasions sigh. Should asked my Creator to be my flesh for longer I ache all over, it's like painful.

I got to disagree with the endless possibilities streaming by bit. For one, I have been trying to fly since the age of 7 and I am 45 and that endless possibility has not manifested yet. Annoying.

Life is more like this cascading serious of awful events and you look around take deep breaths and pray and yeah sometimes you get a bit of a breather, but mostly its's like being in one of them baseball cages without a bat or protective gear and you gotta dodge the balls without getting injured.

Okay, that's depressing Just gonna think of trees, mountains and fireflies if I get like verklempt..

Can do it.

Anna
 

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I HAVE NO CLUE WHO THIS GUY IS BUT HE IS MAKING ME WANT TO READ HIS BOOK. LOL.
@Kn0ttYFive I think you should read it, too. Your disagrees would have more "panache and flair that you could possibly manage right now."

I know you are trying hard. … You can do better and if you get out the Property Brother report pic, I will know this post may have.... stung the TINIEST bit. LOL

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This picture set me off. I was a crunchy granola mom. I'm all for like breastfeeding and co-sleeping and that. What I am EMPHATICALLY against is, if this kid can do THAT he is perilously close to the age where he can ASK for a snack.

I LOATHE parents who breastfeed until their kids are 8. I'm not even monstrous on it like 2-3 is bearable and crunchy granola moms go ON and ON how great it is. Some breastfeeding as a toddler, while I wasn't going to do it and fortunately the kid got good and bored with MY boobs and began his first baby steps towards another....

I have a feeling this granola mom (while he headstand form is not bad) is gonna be the type that like, the kid AND the mom will both need to be in headstands for him even to reach anymore.

It just sends vomit RIGHT to my gorge when a 7 year old says, "Mom I need to breastfeed." I was able to find enough evidence it is BAD OH SO BAD to feel justified at my gorge just RISING up.

I just feel this mom is gonna be one, though.
Anna
 

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This picture set me off. I was a crunchy granola mom. I'm all for like breastfeeding and co-sleeping and that. What I am EMPHATICALLY against is, if this kid can do THAT he is perilously close to the age where he can ASK for a snack.

I LOATHE parents who breastfeed until their kids are 8. I'm not even monstrous on it like 2-3 is bearable and crunchy granola moms go ON and ON how great it is. Some breastfeeding as a toddler, while I wasn't going to do it and fortunately the kid got good and bored with MY boobs and began his first baby steps towards another....

I have a feeling this granola mom (while he headstand form is not bad) is gonna be the type that like, the kid AND the mom will both need to be in headstands for him even to reach anymore.

It just sends vomit RIGHT to my gorge when a 7 year old says, "Mom I need to breastfeed." I was able to find enough evidence it is BAD OH SO BAD to feel justified at my gorge just RISING up.

I just feel this mom is gonna be one, though.
Anna
how do you know he didn't ask?
 
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