I Hear You. And Right On for Doing something about things.
BTW - I Wonder if Some People feel the Same Way about Cigarettes? That the Negative Aspects far outweigh the Positive Effects. Just like You and I do about Alcohol?
I never truly understood the positive effects I got from cigarettes, until I came here and began learning about the effects of nicotine, as well as the other alkaloids present in tobacco. I know now that I was self-medicating my ADD (a condition that wasn't even known, when I first started at age 13 -- because some doofus boy smoked!), my anxiety (which used to be called "being nervous" and was not considered a medical condition, but just a neurosis), and in later years, self-medicating my IBS (ditto the above -- unknown till fairly recent years). But as an adult-onset asthmatic for the last 30 yrs, I've wrestled with cigarettes for many years, and even WITH knowing that my breathing would improve if I quit, and definitely get worse if I didn't, and even WITH having the visual of my dad dying of lung cancer... I simply could not get free of them, no matter what I tried.
E-cigs are the FIRST and ONLY thing that has EVER worked to separate me from cigarettes. It can't be just the nicotine replacement, or the patch would have worked. I don't need much nicotine anyway; I had been steadily decreasing my smoking for about 16 yrs, from 3+ pks a day to right around a pk (or less) a day. For me, I think it's been those other alkaloids that have been most addictive, which no doubt explains why, since I started adding WTA to my ejuice about 2 wks ago, I haven't had a single craving, or suffered any of that emotional mayhem at the 3wk point that I suffered the first time around, when I was using just nicotine, no WTA.
Frankly, right now, my breathing isn't really that much better. There is less junk to cough up, but the asthma itself might even be just a shade worse -- I think that's temporary, till I finish getting rid of the tar left by that month I returned to smoking, because when I had just over 3 months smoke free, my asthma really wasn't bothering me. I think what I may be feeling is the absence of those "anesthetic" agents in tobacco -- my lungs really were worse, as a smoker, but those chemicals masked it, and now that I'm without them, there is no masking; I can really FEEL when my lungs are struggling. But I do have a lot more energy -- I guess that's my cells enjoying all the oxygen instead of CO -- and my self-esteem has probably never been higher, for having FINALLY rid myself of something that I thought I would never be able to get rid of.
I never thought I'd be free of cigarettes, and had stopped even trying to be. E-cigs came along as 'serendipity' -- a BLESSING un-asked for. So I jumped on it with both feet! It made me feel awful about myself when I went back to smoking after my illness, when I couldn't vape for several reasons, but I'm happy that I held it down to a month, and I'm very,
very happy that today makes 4 weeks AGAIN smoke-free, and Monday will be a month.
Andria