OMG! Annette you have seriously got to be the most caring person. That's just really, really sweet. Sometimes I get so absorbed with life that I forget there are still some nice people out in the world
Larkfour, hang in there. It will get easier. I was in the same boat you are in right now not so very long ago. When I first started vaping I saw post after post of people saying things like, "Oh I got my (insert name of pv here) and haven't had an analog since." Meanwhile, I got my first pv and went totally nuts without an analog. I'm talking full blown panic attack, crazy! I wondered what the heck was wrong with me. After several months of feeling pretty bad about myself, I found out that there are other things, in addition to nicotine, in analogs that people get addicted to and I was addicted to one of those other things. I did cut down the amount I smoked in the first week of vaping, went from a pack per day down to 4 analogs per day. Then, the following week, I allowed myself to have 2 (one in the morning and one at night). Three weeks in I cut it down to just one analog per day (I cheated and smoked half of one in the morning and the other half at night - was still just the one analog per day though). I kept that up for a while and one day I just didn't feel like dragging myself out to buy another pack so I didn't. I've been vaping now for a year and 2 months. I've been analog free for about a year now. It will be a year in January. I keep 24 mg liquid around for rough days. I also have 19 mg and 12 mg liquids here and normally take the 19 mg with me while I'm out since I don't vape as much. When I am home though I chain vape so I stick to the 12 mg around the house so I don't vape myself into a nicotine coma. lol Just keep telling yourself that you CAN do this and remember to breathe. The forums here are pretty awesome for providing support, better than any support group I've ever been to
