When I first started vaping I went 25 days without an analog with no problem, but a stressful week started me smoking again part time. I ordered new juice in thinking I needed a higher dosage and that is why I gave in to smoking, but once the juice arrived I went a total of 4 more days without lighting up before I once again caved in. So, this time I believed my PV just wasn't cutting it anymore so after a lot of research I placed an order for a new PV but continued to smoke until it arrived. Needless to say after it arrived, I fell in love with it and was once again on the track to being smoke free - for another 4 days...
Last Saturday night I went out for some drinks and the whole entire time I sat there happily drinking and vaping away with no problems. On my way home just out of the blue I all of a sudden had an overwhelming urge to smoke so before I knew it I was pulling into a gas station. I had a few analogs on my way home and threw the rest in the glove box. The last few days passed without even a craving so I blamed Saturday night's cave in on drinking, but when I woke up this morning all I could do was think about having a analog...and I did! I am so frustrated! The whole time I stood there smoking I kept asking myself over and over in my head 'WHY?!".
This morning I was suppose to receive my new juice restock in the mail and haven't. I checked the shipping status of my order and it hasn't updated since the initial pick-up from the company on Saturday. I fear my order has been lost in the mail now, so I sent the company a support ticket and waiting for a response. Besides the carto I have now, my main vape is all gone and I have very little left of my secondary to get me through the week (and that is cinna-bomb and I can only vape that in spurts). I have other juices but either the nicotine level is too high, not high enough, or I just plain don't like them. What a week so far!
I just don't know why I started off so strong on vaping and now it seems I have to throw analog's back in the mix again from time to time. I smoked for over 20 years and have tried just about every method to stop with no luck. Vaping has been the easiest method by far but now even that seems to not be keeping me from lighting up! Granted, I use to smoke a pack a day and I haven't been anywhere close to that since I caved in the first time, which is a good thing in its own right, but the issue I am having is I am still a slave to smoking even if I have only a few.
My wish is to be completely smoke free once and for all but I feel like it may never happen. Maybe I'm just not ready to quit smoking yet, but if not now, when?! Is there ever a 'right' time to break an addiction? I am so scared that it will eventually take some serious health issue to 'scare' me into never smoking again and as we all know with smoking, sometimes that scare comes too late. I am so frustrated...
Last Saturday night I went out for some drinks and the whole entire time I sat there happily drinking and vaping away with no problems. On my way home just out of the blue I all of a sudden had an overwhelming urge to smoke so before I knew it I was pulling into a gas station. I had a few analogs on my way home and threw the rest in the glove box. The last few days passed without even a craving so I blamed Saturday night's cave in on drinking, but when I woke up this morning all I could do was think about having a analog...and I did! I am so frustrated! The whole time I stood there smoking I kept asking myself over and over in my head 'WHY?!".
This morning I was suppose to receive my new juice restock in the mail and haven't. I checked the shipping status of my order and it hasn't updated since the initial pick-up from the company on Saturday. I fear my order has been lost in the mail now, so I sent the company a support ticket and waiting for a response. Besides the carto I have now, my main vape is all gone and I have very little left of my secondary to get me through the week (and that is cinna-bomb and I can only vape that in spurts). I have other juices but either the nicotine level is too high, not high enough, or I just plain don't like them. What a week so far!
I just don't know why I started off so strong on vaping and now it seems I have to throw analog's back in the mix again from time to time. I smoked for over 20 years and have tried just about every method to stop with no luck. Vaping has been the easiest method by far but now even that seems to not be keeping me from lighting up! Granted, I use to smoke a pack a day and I haven't been anywhere close to that since I caved in the first time, which is a good thing in its own right, but the issue I am having is I am still a slave to smoking even if I have only a few.
My wish is to be completely smoke free once and for all but I feel like it may never happen. Maybe I'm just not ready to quit smoking yet, but if not now, when?! Is there ever a 'right' time to break an addiction? I am so scared that it will eventually take some serious health issue to 'scare' me into never smoking again and as we all know with smoking, sometimes that scare comes too late. I am so frustrated...
