Hello again. Still struggling.

[mommylondon2586]

Hello everyone. I wanted to just post on my thread I had already started but for some reason it wouldnt let me. Could be me I reckon as my head is just not rite these days. Christmas was rough. It was my first one without my son since he passed this past July, so I've been fighting the sadness pretty hard. Anyways, I just wanted to say thank you to everyone that took the time to respond to my post the other day. It really meant a lot to me that there were so many of you willing to offer support and suggestions to help. I havnt tried vaping anymore since last week and I'm not sure yet if I will try again. So I'm pretty down thinking i'm stuck with the analogs. Maybe i'm just not strong enough mentally rite now with the grief still being as strong as it is. Maybe i'm too sensitive to change. I dont know, but I just wanted you all to know how grateful I am for the time you all took to respond. I hope you all had a great Christmas and I wish you all a Happy New Year to come. Take care.

LeAnne

 

[Beamslider]

My sympathy for the loss of your son.

Not everyone succeeds in switching the first try. Some also have better luck doing both while cutting down the cigarettes.

Hope you have a better 2018.....

 

[Fidola13]

Hello everyone. I wanted to just post on my thread I had already started but for some reason it wouldnt let me. Could be me I reckon as my head is just not rite these days. Christmas was rough. It was my first one without my son since he passed this past July, so I've been fighting the sadness pretty hard. Anyways, I just wanted to say thank you to everyone that took the time to respond to my post the other day. It really meant a lot to me that there were so many of you willing to offer support and suggestions to help. I havnt tried vaping anymore since last week and I'm not sure yet if I will try again. So I'm pretty down thinking i'm stuck with the analogs. Maybe i'm just not strong enough mentally rite now with the grief still being as strong as it is. Maybe i'm too sensitive to change. I dont know, but I just wanted you all to know how grateful I am for the time you all took to respond. I hope you all had a great Christmas and I wish you all a Happy New Year to come. Take care.

LeAnne

So sorry to hear you’re having such a difficult time right now. I can’t even imagine what you must be feeling. I think it’s important that you be kind to yourself and not put any extra pressure on yourself.

I hope you have people around you that are being supportive to you.

 

[sofarsogood]

A brother oof min was a dual user for 10 months before finally switching entirely to ecigs. Don't stop vaping.

 

[stols001]

I'm so sorry to hear this and Christmas must have been very hard. I would say don't stop vaping, but if you need to not put ANY pressure on yourself, stop for a while, put away your vaping equipment and come back to it when you are ready.

As a dual user for a LONG time (it must have been at LEAST 6 years) I really struggled myself, for lots of reasons but when I was finally ready to return to vaping (I really had to, no desire to die of COPD) I was able to have success, finally.

If a loved one dear to me (especially my son) died, I am pretty certain I might return to smoking for a time (I know they say never say never) but I would also try to give myself a time limit for my grief and then try again.

All my sympathies. Even if you only vape a few times a day, you may be able to keep this thing going, have SOME harm reduction, and find it easier over time. My sympathies, and whatever you decide is right for you... IS right for you. But hang on to your vape equipment, every quitting attempt is different, and just because it isn't working NOW doesn't mean it may never work.
((Hugs))

Anna

 

[tgs3]

My condolences. I agree completely with those on this thread who say keep vaping even if you are still smoking analogs.

 

[zoiDman]

Hello everyone. I wanted to just post on my thread I had already started but for some reason it wouldnt let me. Could be me I reckon as my head is just not rite these days. Christmas was rough. It was my first one without my son since he passed this past July, so I've been fighting the sadness pretty hard. Anyways, I just wanted to say thank you to everyone that took the time to respond to my post the other day. It really meant a lot to me that there were so many of you willing to offer support and suggestions to help. I havnt tried vaping anymore since last week and I'm not sure yet if I will try again. So I'm pretty down thinking i'm stuck with the analogs. Maybe i'm just not strong enough mentally rite now with the grief still being as strong as it is. Maybe i'm too sensitive to change. I dont know, but I just wanted you all to know how grateful I am for the time you all took to respond. I hope you all had a great Christmas and I wish you all a Happy New Year to come. Take care.

LeAnne

This Christmas was Tough for a lot of us. So know that you are not alone.

But also know that you are Never Going to be Stuck with having to Smoke. And even though Now might not be the time when you can do it, there will be a time.

And when you are ready, there will be those here and in your life to Support you.

 

[miteret]

Not much I can add but when my wife died of cancer (tobacco related) I replaced grief with rage at big tobacco, big pharma and went on a crusade to convert smokers to vaping. This after ECF helped me immeasurably to quit cigs. Whatever you decide, please stay connected to these fine human beings. May your New Year bring solace.

 

[Baditude]

My sincere condolences.

I often repeat a saying on this forum:

"It's not how many cigarettes that you smoked today that is important. It's how many you DIDN'T smoke that is."​

 

[PJReid]

I am so sorry. There are no words. I do wish you luck with vaping. Don't give up. Someone is always here to help.

 

[Letitia]

We will be here when you're ready.

 

[mommylondon2586]

You are all so incredibly kind and supportive, and I truly thank you all for that. Believe me when I say, I REALLY WANT TO KEEP VAPING. I love the smell, the flavor (even the tobacco ones) and I'm simply ...... that I had issues with it. I'm going to do a search on the forum here and see how many posts there are about vaping causing depersonalization and anxiety, and see if any of those members found a solution. I'm not ready to give up. I will keep you all posted. Again, thank you

 

[Zutankhamun]

Too much at one time can be overwhelming.
Keep a vape around and be sure to post a message when your ready.

Sincerest condolences and best of luck for the future @mommylondon2586

 

[BrotherBob]

You are all so incredibly kind and supportive, and I truly thank you all for that. Believe me when I say, I REALLY WANT TO KEEP VAPING. I love the smell, the flavor (even the tobacco ones) and I'm simply ...... that I had issues with it. I'm going to do a search on the forum here and see how many posts there are about vaping causing depersonalization and anxiety, and see if any of those members found a solution. I'm not ready to give up. I will keep you all posted. Again, thank you

Sometimes a doctor can help, might consider.

 

[suprtrkr]

Thank you for your thoughts. When you're ready, we'll all be right here to help you.

 

[mommylondon2586]

Not much I can add but when my wife died of cancer (tobacco related) I replaced grief with rage at big tobacco, big pharma and went on a crusade to convert smokers to vaping. This after ECF helped me immeasurably to quit cigs. Whatever you decide, please stay connected to these fine human beings. May your New Year bring solace.

I'm very sorry to hear about your wife. <3

 

[miteret]

Thank you. We are (were) old persons and death at this age is certain. A young death is tragic and my heart aches for anyone who has lost a child, no matter the age. Please take care of yourself and pursue vaping with the same determination you have to overcome your loss.

 

[Sugar_and_Spice]

You are all so incredibly kind and supportive, and I truly thank you all for that. Believe me when I say, I REALLY WANT TO KEEP VAPING. I love the smell, the flavor (even the tobacco ones) and I'm simply ...... that I had issues with it. I'm going to do a search on the forum here and see how many posts there are about vaping causing depersonalization and anxiety, and see if any of those members found a solution. I'm not ready to give up. I will keep you all posted. Again, thank you

So sorry you are still having issues with vaping. Once again, let me stress that what you are feeling is more than likely the withdrawal from the cigarettes. I truly believe you are not allowing yourself enough nicotine to curb your cravings. The amount of nicotine needs only to be as high as it takes to satisfy the cravings. Also let me stress that nicotine is no more addictive than its cousin caffeine. I know that all we hear on the news is about 'nicotine' but the truth is the real killer is the tar and the over 4000 chemicals that are added to the cigarettes. Smoking addiction is much much more than just the physical addiction. Its also the ritual behaviors and emotional attachments we create over years of using them.
Please keep in touch and let us know how you are doing. Just remember we have all been there with this addiction and while you travel your own path we can help along the way if you let us.

 

[mommylondon2586]

Thank you. We are (were) old persons and death at this age is certain. A young death is tragic and my heart aches for anyone who has lost a child, no matter the age. Please take care of yourself and pursue vaping with the same determination you have to overcome your loss.

Thank you so much Miteret

 

[mommylondon2586]

So sorry you are still having issues with vaping. Once again, let me stress that what you are feeling is more than likely the withdrawal from the cigarettes. I truly believe you are not allowing yourself enough nicotine to curb your cravings. The amount of nicotine needs only to be as high as it takes to satisfy the cravings. Also let me stress that nicotine is no more addictive than its cousin caffeine. I know that all we hear on the news is about 'nicotine' but the truth is the real killer is the tar and the over 4000 chemicals that are added to the cigarettes. Smoking addiction is much much more than just the physical addiction. Its also the ritual behaviors and emotional attachments we create over years of using them.
Please keep in touch and let us know how you are doing. Just remember we have all been there with this addiction and while you travel your own path we can help along the way if you let us.

Thank you Sugar and Spice. I really do appreciate the tip. The thing is, I felt really satisfied with the 6% nicotine. If I started to crave a cigarette, I would hit my vape 2 or 3 times and the craving went away, but then I enjoy the pull and taste of the vape so much, I would take another 5 or 6 hits off of it while sitting and talking with family. I would only smoke a cigarette about once every 2 or 3 hours and my plan was just to slowly keep weening down from them. But both times I tried this, within a day or day in a half of vaping and occasional cigarette, I would start feeling weird. To be honest, I've went longer than that without any cigarettes and never felt that weird, so my brain just keeps wanting to blame the vape. Could the PG in it be making me feel funny?