I can't have even one... not ONE!
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Very much similar to how I feel about it. I was not strong enough to defeat tobacco, God gave me these tools... and here I am. And I'm not what I would call an overly zealous religious sort at all. I rarely enter into discussions of God and religion, but this, this is a miracle. I hope none are offended.
It's hard, but I'm having to face the fact that I'm in the can't even have just one crowd. As most of you know, I'm having a tough time this week, and it's harder than ever to get back to just vaping. I'm not going to get back to total vaping until the temptation is put away from me. I'm going to have to get far, far away, and be a lot further in than I was before I get around it again. I've been like an alcoholic who loves the taste of a particular brand of beer plopped down in the midst of a happy hour with all of their friends buying the drinks. It's a shame, but it's a fact.
Thanks for posting this NoMatches. It's a good reminder that getting off of cigarettes is a personal journey. Most of us here have tried to quit with many other methods and failed. Some of us CANNOT have "just one". I feel sorry for people still in the grips of tobacco addiction since it no longer has any power over me. Congrats on finding your way and thank you again sharing it with us.
We are all different as has been mentioned in this thread repeatedly, but we also tend to fall into "groupings". I know darned well I could go back and struggle the way you are right now. That is exactly why I posted this thread. To support the others that are in my personal "grouping", those of us that canNOT allow for any compromise, any exception, and must always be on guard against slippage.
I was an extremist when I smoked. I would leave a restaurant 3 times during the event. I would even light up a second cig if the first one got too hot to smoke! I power smoked.
Now, I don't view it as being a shame at all. It is who I am. I'm OK with that now. People think I might be putting too much pressure on myself, but that just isn't correct at all.
I knew an alchoholic that had the doctors tell him (after several hospital stays) that one more drink could kill him. Eventually, he took that drink, and it killed him. This is my best, and maybe even last chance, whether true or not, to quit once and for all. The doctor in my own little head tells me one more cig could kill me. I listen to him. He is smart, he knows me.
I AM an ex-smoker. Black and white. No Gray. It's actually easier for me that way. I think it's easier that way for a lot of people, but not all.
Awesome thread!!! I really enjoyed reading this! 
For me...like nomatches said in the very first post..."Not one analog. Not now, not ever."
The fact that I quit (especially since I wasn't even really trying to) is just a miracle to me. I am a non-smoker now.
I don't smoke.
Wow...I love saying that!!!
For me...like nomatches said in the very first post..."Not one analog. Not now, not ever."
The fact that I quit (especially since I wasn't even really trying to) is just a miracle to me. I am a non-smoker now.
I don't smoke.
Wow...I love saying that!!!
Mary Kay! Nicnuck! I'm so happy. These thangs have always needed a better name than "EC" or "PV". Nicnuck!
"Where's my nicnuck?"
"You could always try nicnucks..."
"I love my nicnuck..."
"This yere's mah PINK nicnuck, wit the sparkly diamink on it, see? It's got it sum that PINA COLADA joose in thar. Mah favorite wunnerful liddle nicnuck..."
Beam...
"Where's my nicnuck?"
"You could always try nicnucks..."
"I love my nicnuck..."
"This yere's mah PINK nicnuck, wit the sparkly diamink on it, see? It's got it sum that PINA COLADA joose in thar. Mah favorite wunnerful liddle nicnuck..."
Beam...
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I am embarrassed to admit I had no clue what MK was referring to as a nicnuck until aubergine explained it.....
I Love this thread!
I have to admit NoM, I see boths points but where I am in my life right now, I live by your philosophy.
When I started vaping in Oct. 2009, I THOUGHT my intention was to quit smoking...but wasn't sure. I smoked and vaped and smoked and vaped and really didn't care what the final result was. In a nutshell, I went from 1 1/2 PAD, to 1 to 1/2 to 3 cigs a day over a course of 7 1/2 months. One day (May 5th 2010, I think) I just never picked up another analog.
This week however, has been REALLY stressful for me. (Personal+work-related problems) and I have NEVER wanted to pick up a cig more. BUT, I did not...because I knew it would be the end. The end of my 18 month journey. Even though it started out very casual in the beginning, it now seems like an accomplishment that I don't want to fail at and like you, I KNOW MYSELF. One will lead to a month of chain smoking then starting over.
So............I NAPPED A LOT this week. My conclusion was being unconscious would be better...LMAO!
I have to admit NoM, I see boths points but where I am in my life right now, I live by your philosophy.
When I started vaping in Oct. 2009, I THOUGHT my intention was to quit smoking...but wasn't sure. I smoked and vaped and smoked and vaped and really didn't care what the final result was. In a nutshell, I went from 1 1/2 PAD, to 1 to 1/2 to 3 cigs a day over a course of 7 1/2 months. One day (May 5th 2010, I think) I just never picked up another analog.
This week however, has been REALLY stressful for me. (Personal+work-related problems) and I have NEVER wanted to pick up a cig more. BUT, I did not...because I knew it would be the end. The end of my 18 month journey. Even though it started out very casual in the beginning, it now seems like an accomplishment that I don't want to fail at and like you, I KNOW MYSELF. One will lead to a month of chain smoking then starting over.
So............I NAPPED A LOT this week. My conclusion was being unconscious would be better...LMAO!
I can't believe how bad analogs stink! I am so happy to be off them (for 2 years now). I can't thank you all and V4L enough.
Hey, napping is not a bad way to deal with stress. Seriously. It's not a long term solution, but it can help one to recharge and rejuvinate!
We are all so different, yet we do fall into some sort of sub-groupings, and within those groups here we can always find some company, others who are like ourselves. That is why this forum and V4L is so immeasurably helpful to all of us on this quest! There are many roads to take, but none are deserted. There are always others who take the same path.
Congratulations and good luck with it, NM! For the first few months of vaping, dead batteries + alcohol would motivate me to buy a pack, but I found real cigarettes to be too gross to deal with - I'd take a drag, flick it in disgust, light another, take a drag, flick it... I'm one of the lucky ones, I guess - within days of switching from smoking to vaping, I found analogs to be an inferior and unpleasant substitute for vaping. I also quickly learned the importance of having a backup battery/device/atmomizer, but funnily enough, I can run out of e-liquid and vape straight VG for days until I re-up on e-liquid.
The thing that I wanted to say though, is that e-cigs have a profound effect: they make you re-evaluate your ability to be in control of the smoking habit, and after a few decades of smoking, the effect is awfully compelling. It's the almost occult realization that you do have a tool which will allow you to reorder your world. Once I switched to vaping, I started to realize how gross a lot of the junk food and liquid garbage that I habitually consumed is as well - I used to think that washing a snickers bar down with a sprite was a great way to start the day. Not anymore.
Also, I actually turned back into an athlete, after 20 years or more of being a smoker who likes bikes, boards and blades. Up until last year, I was the dude with a cigarette sticking out of his mouth as I ran errands on my bike - smugly telling people who gave me ish for smoking that I had a smaller carbon footprint than they do. These days, you can catch me with a spare battery, a tube of e-liquid and a bottle of vitamin water, long-distance cruising on one of these:
The thing that I wanted to say though, is that e-cigs have a profound effect: they make you re-evaluate your ability to be in control of the smoking habit, and after a few decades of smoking, the effect is awfully compelling. It's the almost occult realization that you do have a tool which will allow you to reorder your world. Once I switched to vaping, I started to realize how gross a lot of the junk food and liquid garbage that I habitually consumed is as well - I used to think that washing a snickers bar down with a sprite was a great way to start the day. Not anymore.
Also, I actually turned back into an athlete, after 20 years or more of being a smoker who likes bikes, boards and blades. Up until last year, I was the dude with a cigarette sticking out of his mouth as I ran errands on my bike - smugly telling people who gave me ish for smoking that I had a smaller carbon footprint than they do. These days, you can catch me with a spare battery, a tube of e-liquid and a bottle of vitamin water, long-distance cruising on one of these:
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I can relate to this as well. Though I'm not fanatical about diet and exercise, I have been paying more attention to it and have lost 30lbs since I've been analog free. This may have been adding to my stress level lately...LOL...
CG, that is a great story of success and taking control of one's life. Other than smoking, my lifestyle was not an unhealthy one. I had control over almost everything, but smoking. I was a child of the seventies. ....... addict, when everyone thought it was the perfect drug. I beat that beast with a stick. I beat everything. Only one thing held me prisoner. It was the beast outside the cabin that I could not face down. Until now. And how glorious it is! Even if it does take my life, and it may still, after so many years... I have defeated it, once and for all. That means so much....
PS: Still learning the language filter here... it's a pretty touchy little thing.... is it so evil to mention the other demons? Apparently so...
PS: Still learning the language filter here... it's a pretty touchy little thing.... is it so evil to mention the other demons? Apparently so...
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It is, unless it's beer, I've gathered. I'm pretty new here, and I'm also a member on "that other site", the one where people let it all hang out. The filters and moderation here are a bit more strict than I'd prefer, but I think that the mods are just doing their best to keep everyone on-topic and minimize the potential of vaping being associated with negativity or anything illegal. I sometimes find it a bit constraining, but then remind myself that ECF is a vaping forum with the occasional bit of drama, where "that other site" has long been a drama forum with the occasional bit of vaping.
yes No Matches, I'm being very firm with myself too, I feel like I have to be on this. Give myself an inch & I'll take a mile. I see others saying "I smoked one after I quit & hated it" - I'm a little terrified it wouldn't taste bad to me, & all this achievement would be instantly undone. Not going to take the chance! United we stand!! Stay strong! & have a nice night too.
& have a nice night too.
I am with you, maby a little differnt attitude. Once I got my kit, that was it no looking back, no changing back and forth. I was and am excited to vape instead of smoke. I am excited to try new flavors, not smell, I could go on and on. To make this simple I just do not want to smoke and would rather vape. That is what make this wonderful. In all the quit smoking plans I have tried, none of them made me feel like I did not want to smoke. Vaping from the first day, I new I would never smoke again, but because now I just dont woont to, I would rather vape, how great is that?
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