Well, I have decided to rewind the game and start fresh. If I had known 10 months ago what I know now the outcome would have been different. I simply waited too long to admit that it wasn't working and I just couldn't save it. As we have discussed at length several times, the lack of WTA is responsible for depression in some people. I am one of those people. I tried several methods to attempt to make up for my loss of WTA and the problem just got worse and I did end up with an OD of nic twice and still was losing ground to the problem. There seemed to be no way to save it, so I bailed out and pulled the rip cord.
Now I know that I am getting what I need and I have a stable and calm presence once again. So, what now? Now I will begin again, with my chemicals in balance. This time I will start with snus and slowly replace my WTA with the snus and gradually make the switch. This time watching for the tell-tale signs of slipage and OD. I'm not sure how much role the e-cig will play but I will definately lower the nic and just use it as the physical placebo it really is. I'll take it one step at a time, this time with my eyes wide open.
I don't think I wasted the last 10 months of my time. I have learned a lot more than I ever wanted to know about addiction to smoking. I hope I can take that knowledge and the other things that I know we will discover here in this forum and be successful this time. We are making very good progress here and have a lot of help from some truely bright individuals.
So here's to new beginnings...
Now I know that I am getting what I need and I have a stable and calm presence once again. So, what now? Now I will begin again, with my chemicals in balance. This time I will start with snus and slowly replace my WTA with the snus and gradually make the switch. This time watching for the tell-tale signs of slipage and OD. I'm not sure how much role the e-cig will play but I will definately lower the nic and just use it as the physical placebo it really is. I'll take it one step at a time, this time with my eyes wide open.
I don't think I wasted the last 10 months of my time. I have learned a lot more than I ever wanted to know about addiction to smoking. I hope I can take that knowledge and the other things that I know we will discover here in this forum and be successful this time. We are making very good progress here and have a lot of help from some truely bright individuals.
So here's to new beginnings...