I hate this part of having a friend/pet. I hate making the decision to let her go. I hate that she is in pain and doesn't understand what is happening. She can hardly walk she is almost blind and she doesn't hear very good. She is 14 yrs old and i LOVE her with all my heart but i can't make her get better no matter how much i spend on meds. The new meds worked for about a week but now she hardly wants to eat I have to beg her and hand feed her. What will i do without my best friend? I even got her a ramp last year because i could see she was having a hard time with the steps. Now she is outside and too big for me to help her walk back in I can't because i have tried, she only weighs 70 lbs but she is really a big sized dog.Bigger than a Shepard dog.She is a house dog so i hope she can make it back inside one more time. I will take her to the vet as soon as they open and it hurts me so much to say goodbye. My little girl Shadow was a stray that i adopted when someone dumped her on my street. She was a puppy and so cute and sweet. She had mange when i found her and bought her to my home. She looked like a bear cub and acted like she was my Shadow. The vet says 14 is pretty long for a big dog to live BUT in my heart it is not long enough. I just wanted to put this here in memory for my best friend. I hate what will happen later today and am in tears with my heart breaking for her.