So my quit date is October 1st. I have officially communicated it to family, friends, and the world, so there's no backing out this time. So here I sit, looking for kits/components, puffing away at a horrible Imperial disposable, and I'm overwhelmed with fear of quitting. What am I afraid of? NOT getting cancer?
Here's what it boils down to: I've tried to quit and failed. I'm afraid of failing again and never getting away from cigarettes. I'm afraid of becoming a demonic monster and having my husband and daughter hate life for a month. I'm afraid of change. I'm afraid that no matter how long I go without smoking, I'll still want one every day. I'm afraid of missing out on social activity from no smoke-breaks. I'm afraid of the irritability. I'm afraid that life will suck for a while.
I will replace these fears with: It takes many tries to quit, and I have a new friend that will help with e-cigs. Any mood swings should be better managed, since I'm still getting my nicotine, right? Life may suck for a while, and home life may be disastrous, but it's better than life as a cancer patient. If we never change, we never grow or improve. I may still want a cigarette every day, but each time I do, I will remind myself of how proud I am to have fought an addiction that is stronger than ...... and won. I'll just still hang out with smokers outside and vape instead!! I may be irritable at first, but it's worth living happier longer.
Anyone else afraid to quit? What's holding you back? Any words of wisdom from those who kicked the habit? October 1st. I told hubby to only buy me 3 packs this week because I'm DONE! (Plus, I can steal his if I want to cheat.)
Here's what it boils down to: I've tried to quit and failed. I'm afraid of failing again and never getting away from cigarettes. I'm afraid of becoming a demonic monster and having my husband and daughter hate life for a month. I'm afraid of change. I'm afraid that no matter how long I go without smoking, I'll still want one every day. I'm afraid of missing out on social activity from no smoke-breaks. I'm afraid of the irritability. I'm afraid that life will suck for a while.
I will replace these fears with: It takes many tries to quit, and I have a new friend that will help with e-cigs. Any mood swings should be better managed, since I'm still getting my nicotine, right? Life may suck for a while, and home life may be disastrous, but it's better than life as a cancer patient. If we never change, we never grow or improve. I may still want a cigarette every day, but each time I do, I will remind myself of how proud I am to have fought an addiction that is stronger than ...... and won. I'll just still hang out with smokers outside and vape instead!! I may be irritable at first, but it's worth living happier longer.
Anyone else afraid to quit? What's holding you back? Any words of wisdom from those who kicked the habit? October 1st. I told hubby to only buy me 3 packs this week because I'm DONE! (Plus, I can steal his if I want to cheat.)