There are people who say that the switch has been seamless, don't notice much of a difference, etc. That's not how it works with everyone though. I gave up trying to quit smoking back in the 80s. At that point in my life I realized that I was never going to quit, as enough time away from a cigarette and nothing else really mattered. For instance when I was a kid, I traveled the country like many young people do, there was a month or so where I was down on my luck so to speak, I didn't have a place to live or anything to eat but I did manage to smoke, because that's what I spent my time doing, bumming smokes. I remember reflecting on the relative importance of this and smoking was far and away my most basic need.
So this was over 30 years ago, and if anything, if it's even possible, my addiction to cigarettes grew. I've only flown once they banned smoking on planes, and that was during an unavoidable business trip, which I ended up going 5 hours without a cigarette and I thought this isn't an experience I ever want to repeat again.
So yeah, some people are more addicted than others. I started vaping not to quit, but to cut down, and I told people well if I ever quit it's going to have to be pretty easy, I'm not going through a lot of pain. However at various times I decided to try just to vape, and the furthest I ever made it was 5 hours.
So one day I decided to give this a try again, maybe try a little harder. It's really weird how this all worked out, other times I would end up really wanting to smoke, thinking there's no way I can do this, the desire to smoke is just too strong. So when I read about people that say it's easy, speak for yourself. However this time it was much, much easier, for some reason. It wasn't will power, I admit I don't have a lot of that, but it just seemed to go pretty smoothly. It was very tough over the first couple of days but somehow I could handle it.
So I would count the hours and I remember getting to 30 and almost giving in. I took the cigarettes out, smelled them, thought about it, almost lit one up, but put them down. I did this again at about 40 hours. Once again I staved off the craving, and thought geez this is way longer than I've been without a smoke since the 70s, why not keep it going for a little while longer anyway.
So about this time I decided that the 30 mg I had been vaping probably wasn't enough, so if I was going to fail here, I was going to go out with guns blazing, so I cooked up a batch of 36 mg. That made all the difference. At times there was no doubt that I was getting too much nic for my body to comfortably handle, and I got mild headaches and mild nausea, but at the same time I needed that much nic to stave off smoking, so that's how much I used.
I am more accustomed to the higher level of nic now, a couple weeks later, but at the same time I don't vape as much. I've learned a hell of a lot about vaping over this time, going from part time vaping and still smoking 30 cigarettes a day (instead of 50) and going to no cigarettes.
I've heard people say that your lungs clear out as you go along, I haven't gotten to that stage yet, not sure I will, it's true that I am breathing a little better though. This could be from my still inhaling deeply, instead of, say, the more mouth vaping that some people do, I still give my lungs a good "workout" every day you might say. I'm also not smelling better like people say, although that may come in time, I don't really care that much.
It's day 17, I guess for the most part I do feel a little better every day, although I am not all better yet by any means. I haven't really seriously considering lighting up since I threw my cigarettes away almost two weeks ago, although my goal is to feel better than I did when I was smoking, and I'm at least getting fairly close to that now, but I am not there by any means. I'm looking to try WTA juice, there's no question that regular juice doesn't do it for me completely, although the methods I would now consider to get this other fix now don't include smoking. I do need something else though even if it's smokeless tobacco, that's pretty gross and a last resort but still a better choice than smoking if it ever comes to that.
So we'll see how that goes, I have a good feeling about WTA though from reading some of the experiences of others. The people who are happy now with regular juice say they can't tell the difference, and people who regular juice doesn't do it completely for them say it does help. I'm in the latter group for sure. Smoking used to relax me, vaping really doesn't, and I'm still real tense all the time, and do not feel right at all, although it's not anything I can't hack now, but getting rid of that would be good
So this really is a journey for some people, and one I never thought I'd make, but here I am and if nothing else I'm a non smoker now, which is pretty unbelievable
I still won't be flying though, the .......s don't allow PVs on flights, at least not Air Canada, but who cares. I'm pretty happy staying close to home
