A Reminder. Why I Quit Drinking To Get Drunk.

[Striker911]

One of them days here. I have a great wife and beautiful kids. I managed to stay away from people that drink all the time like I did at a younger age, but last night was an exception. I hate myself today, and I have no idea how many people hate me for things I did or said last night. I only have myself to blame for it though. My wife just hangs up on me now but I am sure she will get over it in time. Worst yet is that I cant just hug her and tell her I am sorry. I have to sleep tonight and drive the 5 hours back to where shes at and face my father in law. I wont say what I did. I was faithful but stupid none the less. Why did I do this....... I can be thankful that no one was hurt and I am not in jail. Not saying much though cause I forgot half the day. I hope I never get drunk again.

 

[WickedSick]

We all do stupid things, especially when we are drunk. But we are human and forgiveness for things we’ve done can be earned. I sincerely hope everything turns all right for you and things get better.

 

[Striker911]

Thanks for the encouragement. I am sure it will get better. I cant remember the last time I was drunk otherwise. Just caught me slipping. Finally got some words out of her. "Im smart person but I do stupid **** when I get drunk". Then she hung up on me again when I said I wanted to sleep it off before making the drive. Better get in the car. Later on.

 

[DaveP]

Hope you get things straightened out. It's one of those situations where you have to decide what's important in your life. Not picking on you, but you sound a little like my Dad was when I was a kid. He decided that alcohol was more important than spending time with his kids. Don't let it control you like that. My dad thought he could handle it when he was younger. He couldn't. It just got more important to him as he got older.

He apologized to me later in life for not being there when I was young, but it was already a done deal and he couldn't go back and make it right. For that reason I'm almost a tea totaler. It could happen to me, I suppose. But it won't. I've seen how it can ruin a family life.

Just saying. Take it for what it's worth. Your family is important. They'll forgive you a few times if you slip, eventually they won't.

 

[Striker911]

Hope you get things straightened out. It's one of those situations where you have to decide what's important in your life. Not picking on you, but you sound a little like my Dad was when I was a kid. He decided that alcohol was more important than spending time with his kids. Don't let it control you like that. My dad thought he could handle it when he was younger. He couldn't. It just got more important to him as he got older.

He apologized to me later in life for not being there when I was young, but it was already a done deal and he couldn't go back and make it right. For that reason I'm almost a tea totaler. It could happen to me, I suppose. But it won't. I've seen how it can ruin a family life.

Just saying. Take it for what it's worth. Your family is important.

No offense taken. My situation was different though. She left me at her dads for the second day in a row and wanted to take the car, and leave the kids with me. That's when I started having a bad day. So I had her take the kids and started drinking. I set a limit till a friend dropped in. He took me to some other friends house and my father in law showed up yelling at me to get my .... back home, after only being gone for an hour. I am 31 years old so I didn't take that very well. So off to the house I went on the 5 hour trip. Now im in the dog house for leaving town. I overreacted as most drunk people do. So now I cost myself gas money out the .... and lost time that would have been better spent hanging out with the in laws rather then nursing a hang over. Not sure whats worse really.

 

[DaveP]

Tough situation. Hope you get it all straightened out.

 

[Striker911]

Tough situation. Hope you get it all straightened out.

Im sure it will work out. I don't blame anyone but myself in this and it's by far not the worst it could have been.

 

[Mac]

Relapse is a part of recovery. What happened yesterday is FAR less important then what you do with today and tomorrow. Time will heal those wounds as long as you do not continue to reopen them. Keep your head up.

 

[Striker911]

Relapse is a part of recovery. What happened yesterday is FAR less important then what you do with today and tomorrow. Time will heal those wounds as long as you do not continue to reopen them. Keep your head up.

So true. Today was a great day, and its all behind us now. Thanks for the support Mac.