bad mood, chain smoking

[zeromisfit999]

So I know most people don't come on here to vent and such, but I've had a pretty ....ty day overall. I work in a grocery store (sadly) as a cashier (sadly again) and today was like a tsunami was coming, tons of customers, impatient, muttering words under their breathe. Really gets on my nerves. I have social anxiety as is, and people tend to almost thrive of it like a hyena. People pushing me around all day, and I wonder to myself, what would I do without having an analog to puff on. I tried vaping at work today, and honestly on my lunch break I vaped for about 10 minutes then smoked an analog directly after and was still unsatisfied. You guys have helped in keeping my head up through all this, but to be honest today is one of those days that I'm just thoroughly sick of people's bull..... I don't know if this goes on every where, but I feel like the people a generation ahead of me were either undereducated, or over abused in their adolescence and feel the need to take every damn thing that goes on in their life out on others to find some kind of self fulfillment. I need out of the retail garbage. I can't deal with thousands of people a day, I'll never put down analogs, to be honest I feel like that is my clutch in order to simply calm myself enough to not degrade a person to the point of wanting to commit them self. This is more of a blog post I guess, but does anyone else really struggle with the analog craving around other people, and or in stressful situations? Honestly I tried relying on the MF today, but it truly wasn't enough, although in the moment a 70mg cart probably wouldn't have been enough. Ugh, rant...

 

[hairball]

Breathe.......open both ears and let what is said pass through without paying attention. People are people and it can't be changed. You needed the cig, you smoked it, nuf said...don't beat yourself up over it. When you clock out, forget about it, go home and put your feet up. Keep some 36mg juice handy for days like these and vape yourself happy (but not to the point of getting sick). We all have reasons to relapse but you're better than that. Don't prove it to us, prove it to yourself. No go vape your heart out.

 

[starsong]

You mentioned before about the social anxiety, and it surprised me that you would have a job in retail where you have to deal with people day in and day out. I couldn't do that and I don't have that anxiety -- I just hate annoying, complaining, pushy people. Even worse would be customer support.

But I had a week like yours not long ago, hated everything about my job, totally stressed out, then my supervisor said/did something that sent me over the edge. And I came home and smoked like 6 cigarettes almost in a row. Guess I showed her!!

I know it's not easy these days to just "go find another job", but have you considered a different line of work where you don't have to deal with the public so much?

 

[Evie Luv]

We all have stressful days Zero, especially when we deal with the public. Customer service isn't always easy, you have to be kind even when they aren't. Smile when you want to punch them. But don't beat yourself up over it. Your classifing yourself as a failure don't do that. Each less analog is a success. I've had days that I had to chain vape at 24mg instead of my 16mg to take the edge off. Just come here let us make you laugh and relax a bit. No worries okay. Worry free zone!

 

[redempti0N]

Worry free zone!

This is Planet Fitness? Oh wait that was Judgement Free Zone. I'll going back to lifting things up and putting them down.

 

[shooter59]

+1 what she said...

We all have stressful days Zero, especially when we deal with the public. Customer service isn't always easy, you have to be kind even when they aren't. Smile when you want to punch them. But don't beat yourself up over it. Your classifing yourself as a failure don't do that. Each less analog is a success. I've had days that I had to chain vape at 24mg instead of my 16mg to take the edge off. Just come here let us make you laugh and relax a bit. No worries okay. Worry free zone!

 

[zeromisfit999]

This is Planet Fitness? Oh wait that was Judgement Free Zone. I'll going back to lifting things up and putting them down.

LIFT THINGS UP AND PUT THEM DOWN. hah that commercial made me laugh my ... off. I've been vaping my 16mg ry4 cart almost continuously. Which sucks because I only have one =(

 

[zeromisfit999]

on an upside I learned like 6 songs today on the geetar, until losing my pick moments ago.

 

[Evie Luv]

Zero, do you have any 24mg? If you don't, I'd suggest getting some for days like this. Or you can go punch a bag with Red over at Planet Fitness.

 

[popeye79]

but you also said that the analog didn't help either. so I'd say just try and stay away from them, since you know they won't help.

I have to admit, that I too had an urge for an analog and did it (fight with wife), but only because she still has them. maybe try not buying them. out of sight out of mind, you know.

I don't know how else I can help, other than to say if you hate the job so much, find something else. I know it's a tough economy and all, but there's allways work. you just have to look at things you've never thought of before. there's actually good money in newspapers. or construction. I would say telemarketing if there's a call center near you.. at least you wouldn't have to see the people, and you could hang up on them if they dont' do it first.

I hope you feel better, a beer always cheers me up. I'm drinking Spaten out of my kegerator right now!

 

[zeromisfit999]

well the odd thing is I don't have too much trouvle dealing with people, making them laugh, such and such, I'm very outgoing, despite being in mid-panic mode. The main problem for me lies in what I plan to do professionally. I want to be a tattoo artist, shameless plug, my art if you feel like checking it out , and I have a tattoo right on my hand, makes it hard to get a job anywhere decent. I was working in a tattoo shop for a while, not tattooing, but in between hanging out and apprenticing, and well things simply didn't work out so I'm looking into going back to college, but for now I just have to tough it out until I start making cash inflicting painful art on people

 

[popeye79]

I have some ink too, but life lesson for others I suppose...

NEVER ink anywhere that can't be covered up by a dress shirt.

Besides... that had to hurt like a son-of-a-b.i.t.c.h!

Can't you check out another shop? It's hard to imagine only one being open in say a 50 mile raduis.

 

[zeromisfit999]

I'll try and find a pic. my chest hurt much worrrrssseee.

 

[Evie Luv]

Here is a little southern joke to hopefully cheer you up and make you smile. And if it is too inappropriate I'm sure Red will edit it.

There was this virgin that was going out on a date for the first time and she told her grandmother about it. So, the grandmother says sit here and let me tell you about those young boys. He is going to try to kiss you, you are going to like that but, don't let him do that. He is going to try to feel your breast, you are going to like that but, don't let him do that.

He is going to try to put his hand between your legs , you are going to like that but, don't let him do that. But most important, he is going to try to get on top of you and have his way with you. You are going to like that but, don't let him do that, it will disgrace the family.

With that bit of advise, the granddaughter went on her date and could not wait to tell her grandmother about it. So, the next day she told her grandmother that her date went just like she had said it would. But then she said "Grandmother I didn't let him disgrace the family. When he tried I turned over, got on top of him and disgraced his family."

 

[shooter59]

Sweeeeeeet.... my kinda gal...

Here is a little southern joke to hopefully cheer you up and make you smile. And if it is too inappropriate I'm sure Red will edit it.

There was this virgin that was going out on a date for the first time and she told her grandmother about it. So, the grandmother says sit here and let me tell you about those young boys. He is going to try to kiss you, you are going to like that but, don't let him do that. He is going to try to feel your breast, you are going to like that but, don't let him do that.

He is going to try to put his hand between your legs , you are going to like that but, don't let him do that. But most important, he is going to try to get on top of you and have his way with you. You are going to like that but, don't let him do that, it will disgrace the family.

With that bit of advise, the granddaughter went on her date and could not wait to tell her grandmother about it. So, the next day she told her grandmother that her date went just like she had said it would. But then she said "Grandmother I didn't let him disgrace the family. When he tried I turned over, got on top of him and disgraced his family."

 

[zeromisfit999]

i hope you guys don't mind me posting a few. I have one of my hand and two of my chest, neither picture of my chest is of it finished sadly though.

 

[zeromisfit999]

Here is a little southern joke to hopefully cheer you up and make you smile. And if it is too inappropriate I'm sure Red will edit it.

There was this virgin that was going out on a date for the first time and she told her grandmother about it. So, the grandmother says sit here and let me tell you about those young boys. He is going to try to kiss you, you are going to like that but, don't let him do that. He is going to try to feel your breast, you are going to like that but, don't let him do that.

He is going to try to put his hand between your legs , you are going to like that but, don't let him do that. But most important, he is going to try to get on top of you and have his way with you. You are going to like that but, don't let him do that, it will disgrace the family.

With that bit of advise, the granddaughter went on her date and could not wait to tell her grandmother about it. So, the next day she told her grandmother that her date went just like she had said it would. But then she said "Grandmother I didn't let him disgrace the family. When he tried I turned over, got on top of him and disgraced his family."

ahahahahaha that was pretty funny. not going to lie, i giggled a bit.

 

[zeromisfit999]

here's some of my inkage...

the only pic of my hand that i have

early stages of chest

a little color added

the center almost finished, most painful part hands down

and a random pic of me on new years eve for good measure heh

 

[Evie Luv]

Sweeeeeeet.... my kinda gal...

Awww.......Thanks shooter......but it was a joke about a fictional girl not a biography. Okay.

ahahahahaha that was pretty funny. not going to lie, i giggled a bit.

Glad I could make you laugh, plus Red will probably delete it in a minute and then I'm going to be in big trouble again! ....sighs.

 

[zeromisfit999]

nah, it's harmless... funny though