I don't know if this is the right place for this or if people are even open for it, but I've been meaning to send some of my writings out into the world. It feels really vulnerable, but heck, how bad can the judgements of strangers on the internet be... *starts to sweat profusely*
I've been taking quotes that I find inspiring and sorta riffing on them, reflecting on what it means to me or the way I see them in the context of my life. I don't consider myself religious per se, but I do see existence as something greater than myself. Something I have great respect for and often feel humbled by. As do I have the intention of becoming a better human, even if it's just 1%, every day. The poetry of the 13th century Persian Sufi poet Rumi just seems to get deeper as I grow. The more layers I peel off of my persona (the walls I've built to protect myself in the past), the more layers I can find in his words.
“Come, come, whoever you are.
Wanderer, worshiper, lover of leaving.
It doesn't matter.
Ours is not a caravan of despair.
Come, even if you have broken your vows a thousand times.
Come, yet again, come, come.”
~Rumi
Great Spirit only knows how many times I’ve broken my vow.
In the face of fear, in nihilistic despair, in the face of feeling lost in this ‘godforsaken world’.
The word ‘godforsaken’ implies that one is forsaken by God, yet the only one who can make the distinction between self and all is the ego. See, who’s the culprit now?
I have left you so many times, but I keep finding my way back.
You keep calling me: “Come home. Please… come home. You don’t have to wander.
There is no need for being lost. Only for surrender, because what you are is Love.”
So if I should break my vow a thousand times again, I will make my vow a thousand times plus one.