I have not been here all week and yet I have been everywhere. Or so my brain tells me I really DID mess up my meds today dude.
My alarm clock since I was 16 died for one. You wouldn't think it would be that traumatic but it WAS.
I REALLY FOR REALZ messed up my meds today dude. I sort of bemusedly stared at the containers going "So, just how much what of what especially ADDERALL did I take. I'm sure I dropped some of it. I mean, probably. I just couldn't wake up and kept sort of "re waking" up in this dream state, and taking my meds.
I gotta get to bed earlier or something but my brain keeps going "Nest, nest." Everything is completely organized, nothing is clean. Except kitchen and ba
throoms.
I vomited up some snus mid yoga last night. Long story I will spare you.
So yeah I was like, "So, it appears I have taken somewhere between 1 to 4 times of my Adderall dose." Then I just was like, "Oh well, I suppose my work would be as good a place as any to have a heart attack." Then I was like, "Kids do this recreationally." Then I was like, "Oh well, what can I do. It is what it is. I'm not a kid, it won't be fun, because meds you take all the time AREN'T all that recreational (unless they are opiates) they are just annoying. Went to work. It was what it was (crazy, it's the holidays.)
So yes, even though I have not been here ONE IOTA (I am literally EMBARRASSED at my package count. Not upset mind you, but literally like "OMG Anna." So now it is
buy for others and the joy of giving.
Just know that my brain has been everywhere today, including here, just bits and pieces. Also, some time was spent in hell.
Also
@Topwater Elvis , there is this phrase by which you can evaluate your comments, and you have to get 2 out of
three. Is the phrase kind, helpful and true?
It's not "funny, mean and true." I mean unless you want it to be.
I have great exhaustion and I need to stop nesting dude. My Beautfiul mind room looks like a NORMAL room now and like, I don't know. It's amazing how you can organize, and how you can spread things out.
Without Adderall, the USA would have to allocate me a STATE. A crappy one like Arkansas, but that is okay because I know I would deserve it.
It's almost like I'm pregnant, but not. It's like... .I might birth a KITTEN or something. Not a beaver.
Beavers are great… .for building DAMS. They should not be headgear but I would not want to RAISE a beaver and if I birthed one it would be like FORMULA from day ONE. I wouldn't care what the lactation consultant said.
Nope.
HI!!
Anna