To fix it , or is he happily vaping now?
Hahahahahah. Nope. He occasionally vapes, but mainly he's smoking. I did tell him he "stunk" the other day, but that was mostly out of surprise, like, normally tobacco doesn't smell that bad to me. To be fair, well his neck is a gigantic mess ATM and I think a lot of the stuff BESIDES nicotine in tobacco is also relaxing and painkilling and well, nic is pretty potent painkiller too.
I've been at him to try snus, coz honestly I think that would suit him better he refuses to vape enough nic or high enough nic/WTA to really make it work. He has a super weak stomach, so if I ever even get him to try a SMALL piece, like, he'll probably vomit or whatnot.
I am trying to come to grips with the fact that he might ACTUALLY die before me (I mean, he's 10 years older) especially as I get all healthy and whatnot, but what can I do? At least my new job will allow me to insure him enough to pay for his funeral, man, because if there's anything more stressful than your loved one dying, well it's probably having to do it through a pauper's grave and whatnot.
I'm seriously worried about him but he refuses to address the neck thing until we have decent insurance which is also why I am PRAYING for this job, it has Cigna. I could also insure my kid for a mere 20 dollars more a month as a family compared to spouse plus employee. I am really praying for like, that job to happen. It could solve a lot of problems.
So yeah, to fix it. IDK what on earth is happening with the whole "vape it" thing but not very much.
I'm in the long game though, I mean it took me 7 years of dilatant vaping to finally stop. Also the husband started smoking at some ungodly age like 8 or 10. I was 18 and to be fair not a very rational 18 but age 8 seems like, super hard to combat, in a way.
If he's in the hospital for his neck at some point, immobilized well maybe I can addict him to snus THEN. IDK.
Anna