I need some encouragement ECF!

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BiffRocko

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Thanks, guys. :)

The car is freaking awesome and insanely fast. I raced a Corvette the other day and could have easily tied or beat him if I was more familiar with the clutch and gearbox. It handles like it's on rails, turns heads every time I drive it, and is most certainly a chick magnet. I actually had one girl race up next to me as we were driving down the road and start waving at me while mouthing, "I like you car!" I always thought that chick magnet thing was just TV/Movie BS. I guess all my other cars just sucked...lol

As for the divorce stuff, I've been moved into my new place for a week now. I'm very happy to be living alone in a clean house again, and my cats love not having to live with her dog. I've tried a few times to throw olive branches out so we can get some closure and civilly discuss separating and moving on with our lives. She keeps finding a reason to be angry with me so she doesn't have to face the fact that this is happening because of her behavior. (Such as when she got mad at me because I didn't set up a bed for her to sleep in when she came back to the house after I moved out. Was I supposed to tuck the sheets in nicely and put a mint on her pillow too?) I've decided that further communication is pointless, and that I'm better off pretending she died and finding my closure in that context.

Emotionally, I still have sad/angry/frustrated moments, but overall I'm doing well. Friends have been keeping me busy, showing me I'm loved, and encouraging me to keep moving on.

As for the smoking, I've cut back significantly over the last few days. I was almost back to a pack a day for about a week, but am down to a few analogs at night now. I expect it's only going to be a few more days before I've kicked them completely again.

And speaking of the good bunch here at EFC...I've been posting in a Z forum, asking questions so I can make informed buying decisions. I've had several people effectively tell me I'm stupid for trying to learn something. It made me think how that type of behavior is not present here and in the rare cases where someone does act that way, they're promptly put in check by us regs.
 
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Hahaha. Sadly, I lost a hard drive a few months ago with all of my pictures on it. I have purposely not traditional Americanized, Japanese styled sleeves. I have a few different styles on my legs. On the back of my neck. I have "Om mani padme hung" (a Buddhist mantra) in Tibetan Sanskrit. Here's the only two pictures I have of. The first is part of my left sleeve in progress. The second is on my leg.

I normally don't explain the meaning of my tattoos to people, but you've all been so great I'll go ahead and let the secret out. On my right arm I have a monk and a dragon that wraps around the arm. Behind the monk and dragon are the elements fire, water, and wind. In Japanese culture, the dragon symbolizes power and wisdom. The monk in my tattoo is mirroring the dragon's pose. He represents me following a life long striving towards having the power and wisdom of the dragon.

I also had the tattooist intersperse three pieces of rice paper along my arm. Each is meant to signify a different phase/major lesson in life. The first is an island that represents hope. (I still have to get this inked actually.) The second is the one I'd be filling in now. It's a roughly rectangular space on the inside of my arm starting below and ending at my elbow about 2 x 5 inches.

For now, I'll probably just get the island inked. The hope I learned to always carry with me is getting me through this time. When I've pondered on the current situation long enough, I'm sure I'll find the appropriate image for the second though.

Oh, those and the thoughts are friggin' awesome! If I wasn't 48 years old, I be after you!

I can't offer any help because I've never been married or in a long-term relationship. I couldn't put up with someone always wanting to change my life. I'm not very compromising. I do have a 12 year old daughter though that I was extemely happy to have. I did have this guy once that I was engaged to, but broke it off. The relationship was much better after we broke up ;) . What is it about getting close to someone that changes the entire dynamic? I just hate that! :) As for my daughter's father, well that was just an addiction to a "bad body" image.

Anyway, I'll finish reading the thread and I hope that things are going good for you. I just had to stop when I saw your tats and your notes of wisdom to comment.
 
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BiffRocko

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Oh, those and the thoughts are friggin' awesome! If I wasn't 48 years old, I be after you!

Thanks. :)

I'm starting to figure out a rough idea for the 2nd panel. Haven't quite nailed it yet, but the themes that keep coming up are being open to unexpected change, embracing community, openness, and love, and always moving forward in life. It's going to be hard to find imagery that represents all three, but it will come to me in time.
 

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Hey Biff!
Hope you're doing well!
Here are a few of mine. They were all occasional & represent something significant about me or my life. Mickey was for my cousin Heather. She had Cysic Fibrosis & died at age 27. Most everything means something in my tattoos. Colors, symbols, location...

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BiffRocko

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I'm still trying to get a hold of one of my old tattooists. A friend said he spoke with him recently, but I still need to get his contact info. Then I'll have him do the design for the "island panel". I'll probably wait a bit before I get the second panel inked. I want to make sure I have the perfect theme/imagery for it, and I need more distance from current events to get that clarity.
 
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