I smoked

[lynleestar]

I wish I could say that I hated it but I didn't. I'm not proud but I'm trying to not beat myself up. I still consider 1/1/11 my quit date, I certainly don't intend to go back to a PAD or more. I definitely 'felt' the throat hit with the cigarette and now I kinda like the TH. Suddenly the only thing I want to vape is atomic cinnacide at 5v~! Am I going to fry my taste buds?? 3.7v tastes like nothing now. It's going to be a month or more until I get my own 5v mod and the loaner I have will have to go back before then

Sorry guys, I feel like I let ya'll down

 

[Sallana]

You didn't Lynlee. Start over tomorrow. You'll be okay.

 

[Lisa B]

You didn't let anyone down, you just slipped a little, nothing wrong with that. You just keep doing whatever works and you will be fine.

 

[BiancaMontgomery]

Sweetie, if you need another 5v loaner, I'm your girl. Just let me know. (((Lynlee))) I know you're probably upset with yourself, but we've all had these times to get through, you are not alone AT ALL. We're here for you.

 

[keyzygirl]

Knock it off!!!

You have people here to support you,lend you GLVs and help you in any way possible.I dont want to hear your mamby pamby excuses!!(just kidding)
Hey have 2 or 3!smoke your .... off!!(LOL,sorry)Ok Im done here!!(luv ya!)

 

[grandmato5]

And why do you think you should be any different than the rest of us??????? (((hug))) Every one of us has struggled at one time or another. You did NOTHING HORRIBLE !! Ya just gave into the "cigarette demon". Now give him a swat and pick yourself up and keep doing all the great things you've been doing these past few weeks !!

Ya didn't have to admit it to us and THAT took courage and strength so girl you've got more going for ya than you think you do!!!!

Oh, by the way, your offical quit date still stands as it is. That little ciggy was just a "test" which doesn't count. Grandmas are allowed to give passes and I'm offically giving you one !!

 

[Trish342]

This Nana will also give you a pass....Its ok, just keep vaping.. That is all that matters. One or two cigs will not change anything. ((((Hugs))) girly. You will be fine.

 

[zadane]

I'm still going on one analog a day...

not sure why. i don't much care for them...

but on the bright side, after taking a drag off the analog. the PV tastes a thousand time better XD

 

[keyzygirl]

I hope you know Im teasing you.Dont stress Lyn,just do your best and no worries.

 

[katydid]

As a grandma of 21 years I have a lot of grandma pass giving power and you got my pass too. Dont worry about what went under the bridge today. Tomorrow is another opportunity

 

[Lauralie]

I still smoke analogs daily but it may be 2 or it may be 1 but i still consider myself a winner anyway. i still feel better and smell better and I have no doubt my body is healthier - so did I let myself down???? NO!

 

[skydragon]

lynlee,

Listen to the others and do not beat yourself up about it. You also should not feel that you let anyone on the forum down.

I still smoke. Sometimes they taste horrible so that I actually put it right out and at other times it is the only thing that settles me down.

Honestly, sometimes I wonder if I will ever quit. Sometimes messing with all this **** gets me so frustrated it makes me smoke a cig. lol


Pay no attention to my banner. I just wanted to use the ProVape one and they only had banners with quit dates.

 

[Lauralie]

I still smoke analogs daily but it may be 2 or it may be 1 but i still consider myself a winner anyway. i still feel better and smell better and I have no doubt my body is healthier - so did I let myself down???? NO!

Just get back on the track you were on and SMILE!!!!!

 

[classwife]

More grandma pass power here too sweetie !!!!!!

 

[lynleestar]

Wow, I never knew about the grandma pass~!

Seriously, thanks guys.

I really can't taste any other juices after trying the AC at 5v!

 

[gramakittycat]

Okay I'm late to the party but I'm here! i can't be the only grama not to chime in so here goes and just remember it is said with loving concern...You need'nt apologize for truely the only one you are hurting is yourself. I do give you props for "fessig up" ;so much of the foundation of the cyber community is trust and you have shown by your confession that you are one that can most likely be trusted in other matters also.I mean you could be smoking a pack a day how would anyone in cyberworld know? Anyway LL,I hope you are able to beat down the Demon Tobacco:I know you can you've already shown you can do it.Be true to yourself but if you loose a battle now and then don't be to hard on yourself.It's winning the war that really counts in the end and I believe the good Lord made you a winner the first time you picked up a PV instead of a cig. (((HUGZ))) I'm always around even though I'm not able to always respond I am praying for you and anyone else that needs some help from above.NOW CRUSH THE REST OF THAT PACK AN DON"T DO IT AGAIN!!!! (((HUGZ AGAIN)))

 

[salemgold]

Wow, I never knew about the grandma pass~!

Seriously, thanks guys.

I really can't taste any other juices after trying the AC at 5v!

Ha! I bet the AC at 5V is a .... kicker! But really, give yourself a break. You will get there. It takes some longer then others and smoking less is a step in the right direction for sure.

 

[Brutus Buckeye]

lynlee, you slipped, it happens sometimes. As others have said, do not beat yourself up over this. You are so giving on this forum and I have much respect for you from the things I have seen on this forum. You know what? My respect for you and I know everyone else's has not changed one bit. Get up tomorrow and face the smoking demon head on, one day at a time. You will beat it because you are stronger than it is, period!

 

[lynleestar]

This is really weird but I think my little slip helped me....when I lit up I felt the throat hit. I paid close attention to the way I inhaled the cig, and it was different than vaping. I wanted to try out the most powerful vape I had to test the TH factor, AC at 5v. I loved it, the TH was great, and it didn't make me cough! Now I decided to experiment a bit more and found a 24mg 80pg juice. I have been saying I'm sensitive to pg....well this stuff is great at 5v too! 80/20 24mg caramel macchiato from gourmet vapors at 5v and I'm getting TH and NOT coughing!! This is amazing~! All because I tweaked my inhale a little after actually paying attention to the way I smoked!

 

[BiancaMontgomery]

Don't forget that if you have to return your 5v loaner, I can get you another one! You better take it too if you need it or I will hunt you down and go all psycho lesbian on your ...! No one wants to see that.