(tl;dr I freaked out, had a cigarette, think snus might help)
I was doing so well! I smoked for over 22 years. The only time I went a week without smoking I was in the hospital for, ironically, lung surgery. (Not smoking related.) vaping was keeping me partly sane, but I was still twitchy and irritable - putting it mildly - and even vaping 36mg for 30 minutes straight didn't satisfy me much.
I was freaking the hell out today, completely wired and on edge, my nerves stretched to the point of breaking... And then I had a cigarette. It tasted gross, but OH GOD I felt so much better! So good that I immediately had another.
Needless to say, I'm disappointed. But I'm not beating myself up. 8.5 days is a huge accomplishment for me, definitely a proof-of-concept.
I know I can do this, and after (many) hours of reading, I suspect the other alkaloids are the key. After analyzing my options, I've come to some conclusions:
I'm grateful for the information about it on this forum. I'd heard of it, seen it for sale, but never really thought about it. Now that I know about the other tobacco alkaloids, snus makes a lot of sense to me. I'm on several potent psych meds - trust me, there's compelling reasons - and I was already aware that I'm particularly sensitive to MAO inhibitors. The other alkaloids may also explain why gums and patches always led to apocalyptic meltdowns whenever I tried quitting.
I'll be back to let you all know the results.
I was doing so well! I smoked for over 22 years. The only time I went a week without smoking I was in the hospital for, ironically, lung surgery. (Not smoking related.) vaping was keeping me partly sane, but I was still twitchy and irritable - putting it mildly - and even vaping 36mg for 30 minutes straight didn't satisfy me much.
I was freaking the hell out today, completely wired and on edge, my nerves stretched to the point of breaking... And then I had a cigarette. It tasted gross, but OH GOD I felt so much better! So good that I immediately had another.
Needless to say, I'm disappointed. But I'm not beating myself up. 8.5 days is a huge accomplishment for me, definitely a proof-of-concept.
I know I can do this, and after (many) hours of reading, I suspect the other alkaloids are the key. After analyzing my options, I've come to some conclusions:
- I've looked at WTA e-liquids, but I'm just too wary. I'm already uncomfortable inhaling flavorings - yes, vaping is probably safer than smoking by several orders of magnitude, but there's not much information about the safety of vaping the hundreds of different flavorings used in e-liquids. Food-safe does not equal vape-safe. Ingesting and inhaling are completely different routes of administration. For me, as of now, WTA e-liquids are just too much of an unknown.
- I've used and liked snuff in the past, but I have a bad history of putting... um... other things up my nose and don't want anything that mimics that kind of behavior.
- I'm not a fan of spitting, and I'd like to minimize trauma to my already wrecked dentition.
- Snus it is!
I'm grateful for the information about it on this forum. I'd heard of it, seen it for sale, but never really thought about it. Now that I know about the other tobacco alkaloids, snus makes a lot of sense to me. I'm on several potent psych meds - trust me, there's compelling reasons - and I was already aware that I'm particularly sensitive to MAO inhibitors. The other alkaloids may also explain why gums and patches always led to apocalyptic meltdowns whenever I tried quitting.
I'll be back to let you all know the results.
