If I quit, I get dreadfully sick, if I smoke cigarettes I get scary-sick, heart problem sick. My uncle was found to have holes in his heart, I don't know if I'm prone to the same disease. I just know that I've never felt these symptoms until I started smoking cigarettes (again) very recently, and I can't stand them and I want them to stop... I'm concerned about my health, yet I don't know what I can or should do. I do not have health insurance.
You do realize that smoking, or any nicotine consumption, is most likely the real reason for the exacerbation of your symptoms?
If you would of just said you needed juice because you're broke, that's understandable. But, you've brought your health to attention, and you've made some pretty bold claims.
Medical bills costing too much? I guess you're right. I mean, who wants to leave all of those bills to your loved ones when you're dead? The symptoms and health history you're presenting, if truthful, may indicate that you have some serious issues. This is no joke, if you're actually be honest in all of this, you need to seek medical help, now.
No, not when you get insurance... not after you get more nicotine... now. That is, of course, if you're 1. Telling the truth, and 2. Enjoy living.
I wish you luck, and hope you make the rational choice.
Edit: After re-reading my post, it almost appears that I am being callous, or too rough. In truth, this may be so. I take people's health
very seriously, never lightly. And, whenever someone brings up crucial signs and symptoms to attention and yet refuse to get them check out, it more than irks me a little.
I wouldn't mind helping out. I have given away hundreds of mls of juice to people in this forum during my tenure here. I just want to see you get the professional help, that you may need.
Just to let you know - Most hospitals will treat you without insurance, especially if you have a real issue. Yes, the bill will be ridiculous. But, is your life not worth it? You can always go bankrupt after college, and start fresh.