Hey Zirf,
Don't be so hard on yourself. I remember when I was still kinda new to vapeing. I hate to admit it, but to be honest, the urges came, sometimes I found myself at the gas station. Especially during times of stress. I would walk out with a pack of my old brand, smoke one, think that's what I needed. Then I would toss the rest. Not out of protest, but I soon realized I was over it! My flavors in vape were honestly better. Not to sound like I'm on a high horse, I would venture back for awhile. Smoke one or two, toss the rest. I finally realized it was a waste of money. Two smokes for $7.00! Now in time, I realize I don't need that anymore. I love what I read here once. "Don't count the cigarettes you smoked, count the ones you didn't." I was where you are once, it passes. The time will come that you don't miss it or need it. Just stay with it! And don't beat yourself up!