Late night confession...

[SnowDragon]

When I saw the post title I was thinking of something completely different. Ya know when you see those that have lost everything to a natural disaster like a Tsunami, Earthquake, Tornado. Folks dealing with terminally ill loved ones or kids rummaging through dump sites searching for a meal in some 3rd world country it sheds a light on the luxuries we have over our life's little issues.

I wouldn't waste too much time beating yourself up over something as minuscule and trivial as this. Move the spotlight away from the last couple of weeks and put it onto the last year of not smoking. The answer is simple, you need a mod with a 808 connector and prefills.....done. There are plenty of good mods out there...even 5v mods..that are very reasonably priced.

 

[waylonjessi4ever]

After over a year of vaping, I backslid big time!

Not only did I let myself down, but the people I converted to vaping as well.

From KR808 to Ego and back to KR808, I just got fed up one day of dead, disfunctional and weak batteries, adjusting center posts and refilling cartoz.. during a day of being out and about. It seemed so much easier to buy a pack, light one up and get my nic fix I was craving so bad.

I am in no way blaming anyone here but myself. V4L has been nothing but great to me. Besides, they are not the ones making the hardware and can not do QC properly because of that.

Dont get me wrong though.. Real ones TASTE & SMELL horrible! But, the convenience factor has me smoking again. 5th pack in past 2 weeks. I still vape indoors and around family just because it doesnt bother them as much as cigarettes do.

I never found that "sweet spot" alot of people talk about around the forums. I got sick of searching for "the flavor" that would be my all day vape so I stuck to one I liked and too much of it made me feel grossed out some times.

It feels like I need to start all over again and to be honest, I am so drained emotionally and physically about all of this that I dont want to.

A combo of personal problems and hardware maintenence frustration led me to smoke again... Bottom line is I failed..

no you didnt fail .I have had the same issues and have fallen alot after the first two months .Personal ,health etc issues drove me over the edge .keep trying along with me ! I still figure 1-2 a day is not the pack a day i was at before vaping .We can do it ! I keep trying to remember none of us are perfect in absolutely every dang way lol
Youll do it when you are ready ...try to maybe cut out one cig a day till youre ok again ? Thats what im doing .
I was never a menthol smoker but they help me greatly with cravings as does wowboy .keep tyring your flavors ! xo good luck

 

[krazie_Kid]

Newb,

I herd a quote here from BornAgainst and SawLight. "It is not a failure if you smoke and vape, it is a win for you, because of the cig's you did NOT smoke."

I have a few smokes once in a blue moon and I think they are so gross compaired to an e cig.