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Life sux!
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wow im sorry you had to go through all of that. i gues i should have told our story longer and how i came about the information i gathered. went off bc almost 9 years ago now when i first got married cause we wanted children. well went to dr he said u have hyperthyroid i want to do a ultrasound to make sure u dont have a goiter well they found one and i went through radiation for it was quaranteened (sp) for a week. then was allergic to everything so dr made me get rid of my babies (my 2 cats) about 6 months later i relized it was radiation and not the cats that caused the issue. well after radiation and going to the dr 2 times a week cause of how i felt i gained 100lbs in 6 months and developed pcos, boarderline type 2 diabetes and i was only 21! being told u can't have kids niiice...well then our church needed volunteers to help out on thursday nights to babysit for the foster parents (in florida you have to have extra training every month to be able to continue being a foster parent) we recieved training because most of the children in our foster care system are detoxing/abused it was really hard as we had the 1-2 year olds. we also have something called foster heart link and yes they will adopt out the "sick" ones first and we were actually thinking about that. i know i would love a healthy "normal" baby but i think if we were to do it we would do it for someone that wouldn't otherwise be adopted. we are still talking about it but in the middle of actually persuing it a girl i worked with became pregnant she didn't want it then asked me if i wanted her baby...i was like yes...(she lives 10 blocks from my house i drive past her house at least twice a day) i counseled (sp) her and she was afraid to be the same mom that her mom was to her. well i told her that we were willing to do it if she still wanted us to and she knew where we lived. i left that job after abotu another month as i couldn't bear to see her anymore and see the ultra sound and all after she did it once and said it was my baby. my father in law passed away in june 2005 of ALS we didn't get the diagnoses until a week before he passed. after he passed mother in law at 54 went nuts she has the mentality of a 12 year old she lives with us now and is on medication and we are told she needs to be in assisted living but i want to keep her home and happy right now with some freedom before we do that. she knows that if it gets worse then she will go into alf and is ok with that. but we have fun and she feels like she is doing something being able to help with the house and stuff. so in essence we have a child. not exactly where i thought i would be a 29 but it is what god has given me and im ok with that. we may even decide that we wont adopt but that is the future to figure out when his mom goes in alf.
sorry about the whole thing but this is my story.......
thank you for reading
wow im sorry you had to go through all of that. i gues i should have told our story longer and how i came about the information i gathered. went off bc almost 9 years ago now when i first got married cause we wanted children. well went to dr he said u have hyperthyroid i want to do a ultrasound to make sure u dont have a goiter well they found one and i went through radiation for it was quaranteened (sp) for a week. then was allergic to everything so dr made me get rid of my babies (my 2 cats) about 6 months later i relized it was radiation and not the cats that caused the issue. well after radiation and going to the dr 2 times a week cause of how i felt i gained 100lbs in 6 months and developed pcos, boarderline type 2 diabetes and i was only 21! being told u can't have kids niiice...well then our church needed volunteers to help out on thursday nights to babysit for the foster parents (in florida you have to have extra training every month to be able to continue being a foster parent) we recieved training because most of the children in our foster care system are detoxing/abused it was really hard as we had the 1-2 year olds. we also have something called foster heart link and yes they will adopt out the "sick" ones first and we were actually thinking about that. i know i would love a healthy "normal" baby but i think if we were to do it we would do it for someone that wouldn't otherwise be adopted. we are still talking about it but in the middle of actually persuing it a girl i worked with became pregnant she didn't want it then asked me if i wanted her baby...i was like yes...(she lives 10 blocks from my house i drive past her house at least twice a day) i counseled (sp) her and she was afraid to be the same mom that her mom was to her. well i told her that we were willing to do it if she still wanted us to and she knew where we lived. i left that job after abotu another month as i couldn't bear to see her anymore and see the ultra sound and all after she did it once and said it was my baby. my father in law passed away in june 2005 of ALS we didn't get the diagnoses until a week before he passed. after he passed mother in law at 54 went nuts she has the mentality of a 12 year old she lives with us now and is on medication and we are told she needs to be in assisted living but i want to keep her home and happy right now with some freedom before we do that. she knows that if it gets worse then she will go into alf and is ok with that. but we have fun and she feels like she is doing something being able to help with the house and stuff. so in essence we have a child. not exactly where i thought i would be a 29 but it is what god has given me and im ok with that. we may even decide that we wont adopt but that is the future to figure out when his mom goes in alf.
sorry about the whole thing but this is my story.......
thank you for reading
thank you sudoku...i just go where i am needed. its a hard life but its mine and i def wouldn't trade it for anythign in the world...well maybe a week or two of peace...in a spa..mmmmmm
There is a technique for relaxing, it's called a memory palace. The idea is to clearly imagine somewhere you would like to be..maybe a cabin in the woods, a cottage at the beach..whatever. Build it in your mind, bit by bit, decorate it and furnish it. Do this when ever you want to 'get away".
Each time you think of your memory palace or cottage, try to really be there, make a cup of tea, sit on the porch, feel the breeze.
I know it sounds stupid but it works for me..I have a log cabin by a lake. I sit on the porch and watch the ducks (I have never seen a lke with ducks on it, so this takes a bit of thought!) It helps me fall asleep.
Ryle, you are a nice woman, give yourself a break and then dive back in!
mss5366, There will be a special place for you in the hereafter. Please try to be good to yourself!
WS23, We all feel for you, You are among friends here. Try to use this place to find a bit of fun and friendship. It will help, I promise.
Each time you think of your memory palace or cottage, try to really be there, make a cup of tea, sit on the porch, feel the breeze.
I know it sounds stupid but it works for me..I have a log cabin by a lake. I sit on the porch and watch the ducks (I have never seen a lke with ducks on it, so this takes a bit of thought!) It helps me fall asleep.
Ryle, you are a nice woman, give yourself a break and then dive back in!
mss5366, There will be a special place for you in the hereafter. Please try to be good to yourself!
WS23, We all feel for you, You are among friends here. Try to use this place to find a bit of fun and friendship. It will help, I promise.
im about to crack i want to hurt hubs really bad at the moment. he has been out of work since 2 weeks before thanksgivign last year...so 9 almost 10 months. he does get unemployment but here in fl its so little. we paid for him to go to take an 8 week class for phlebotomy...then he has an externship at the va..wonderful im happy for him. well he has spent money here money there...(no recipets to me who pays the bills) he even hid it on the charge card and now i got charged an over balance on it so far he in 2 weeks has cost us 63.00!! im really tired of being lied to and about to call the bank and stop his credit card and bank card. that would piss him off but dang it why the hell does he keep this crap from me. im only posting cause i need to vent hes at the va right now with cell off or i would be going off on him right now....f'ing ...... right now...breath happy place...wish life were easier
thanks for reading..
mary your image advise will come in handy right now
thanks for reading..
mary your image advise will come in handy right now
My hubby has been jumping on the last nerve hard for a while as well. Trust me, money doesn't make it any easier (he has a great job and I still want to killhim most of the time). Life is hard no matter how many jobs he gets. My hubby makes twice my teacher salary, and he .....es when I spend a little on ecig stuff. I have figured out he is gonna ..... no matter what, so I just go about my business and tune him out. I offically start a new school year tomorrow. In case you havn't noticed, I am not an English teacher.
We just moved our last foster son into college. I hope he does ok. If we can just keep him away from the girls, drugs and cell phone, he should be fine. Hopefully now that we have an empty nest again, we can settle our differences. We absoultly would not do it with one of the kids here. We need time to talk, yell, cry or whatever we need to do (grin) to get our relationship back on track. This summer has been rough with the move to a new house, grad school, adoption and trying to help the kids that are already in our life. Maybe fall will be a little easier..........
We just moved our last foster son into college. I hope he does ok. If we can just keep him away from the girls, drugs and cell phone, he should be fine. Hopefully now that we have an empty nest again, we can settle our differences. We absoultly would not do it with one of the kids here. We need time to talk, yell, cry or whatever we need to do (grin) to get our relationship back on track. This summer has been rough with the move to a new house, grad school, adoption and trying to help the kids that are already in our life. Maybe fall will be a little easier..........
ws i will definitly be praying for you. i understand about the having others around in the house with my mother in law living with us. at some points though we have told her if we start rasing our voices she is to close her bedroom door..lol we fight it out cry hug..kiss..run out of the house, slam doors...9 years of marriage and we have only really lived alone together for maybe 2 of them. im looking forward to her being in alf one day. but what helps is she goes to her moms sometimes for 4 or 5 days. which does give us a break but when she comes home we are both very very moody...lol i would suggest date. date dh and see how that works out. we have to do it once and a while but i tell him why go out when she isn't home? i want to be in the house when she isnt here we can date when shes home..lol i dunno its hard with kids, inlaws or anyone else other than you two in the house for you to keep it just you two. lots of hugs and luck ur way!!
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