I was tested when I found that kitten in my engine compartment a few months ago. Just a sweet little kitten as friendly as can be (with a girly pink collar that was trying its hardest to soften me up). But I never hesitated or had a second thought about finding her a new home. Confirmed to me that I'm ready to be petless.I hear you. Our beloved Sakai who we put down the week after we got married took a major toll on us. When we took the kittens into the vet last week for a checkup, they reminded me I commented on our way out after saying goodbye to Sakai that I was done. Sakai cost close to $8K in her last 6 weeks. It clearly didn't work out the way I figured and here I am typing as I watch both Emi and Eri flying all over the place having fun. And it warms my heart and makes me laugh. But I'm also realistic. I'm guessing these will be the last kittens we'll have. By the time we have to say goodbye to them, we could both be in our 80s and at that point, it would be irresponsible of us to bring kittens home again. So I will love and cherish these kittens with every fiber of my being. Yes I will!