I know I am late to the picnic but I want to thank you X for sharing your story and the beautiful pics of your family with us. You are a inspiration to all of us with anxiety problems.
Thank you. I have been much MUCH better since manning up and taking the Destin trip. It proved two things to me:
1. Home is not my safe place - being with my family is
2. Now that I did that, the little things that used to cause anticipatory anxiety are pretty much gone. It gives me a reference point of a recent major accomplishment that helps diminish lesser triggers. I look at little triggers and say "dude, you just endured 7 hours in a car and were several hundred miles from home" or something like that.
It is not easy - but my dr has put me on a low dose of Klonapin (it's a benzo like Valium but less powerful) that I take every day and my life is more normal now than it has been in years. It's all in facing these things we perceive as dangerous and doing them repetitiously. I have a LONG way to go but chipping away (at my cell that I built) like Eastwood breaking out of his cell in escape from Alcatraz. One day I'll be crawling thru the innards of this Alcatraz and swimming away in a warm, non shark infested ocean
I take little pokes up the highway (like one exit then back) atleast once or twice a week for no reason just to face things that I used to avoid. Now all of my previous local avoidances no longer cause any anxiety.
Thanks to all who have pumped me up, cheered me on and shared. I like it. We are not alone.
Oh, I also broke out my unused iphone4 and video all my highway drives - another distraction
Here's my book with the scrawling a of a highly anxious man placed there while waiting for my family to come back and get me:
At the time if those writings I was so ready to go but so unsure I could do it.
Here I am baby

. Did it and got the shirt.