OH.. don't make me start boo-hooing now too! (hormones people.. hormones) This is not a "fish for compliments thread" you know I love you all.. and you are part of my family, and I did miss you all like crazy. Ask my deej.. all I said was "PIF" this and "PIF" that.. and blah blah blah... but I wouldn't have risked public embarrassment

if this weren't important. I think it needs addressed somehow... and I finally see the difference. (thank you boB, Superbals)
It is one thing, to see a PIF.. decide that you would like to pass on it so the next person has a chance (you may want it, or maybe not) but you don't take the offering because you are, in a sense "paying it forward".
It's different (at least to me) if you see a PIF that you would like, but you pass on it because you don't feel worthy of taking it... you feel you don't have enough to offer in return, you feel you have too much already. whatever the reason.. you don't take it even though you want it. To me: this person is why we do this, at the least; one of the biggest reasons of why I do it. This is the person I want to take my PIF. I want it to go to someone that really really could benefit from it. Someone that doesn't have enough stuff to make a kit, therefore could actually use it!! Or someone that sees something that they've really been wanting to try, and even though they do have stuff.. maybe they don't have what I'm giving- this might be a treat for all that they do around here. Ideally.. these are the ones I want to take my PIF.
Of course we cannot pick whom our recipient is... Of course, anyone is welcome to them.... but I'm finding, for whatever reasons, the people I'd most like to take one, are the ones I have to chase down and beat with a stick, just to take something from me.
boB.. no ((((((((((hugs)))))))) honey, I understand why you did it. Though I wished you would have taken one of my PIFs more often, between you and Missy, yall did take occasionally. Thank you.. and never EVER worry about me getting upset with you.. It's just not going to happen
Superbals... sweetie.. yes.. I saw you down at the bottom for a while. I had read in some other thread, about you needing something (couldn't remember at the time.. what.. but I was hoping either you or PoP would take it) To me, giving something I have extra of, and thinking of you opening your PIF and being appreciative, of what I have been able to share, knowing that I could do that for someone (even if it's a pack of bottles) That is one of the greatest feelings in the whole world. Sharing Joy with someone else.. it's undescribable.. and it's why I do this. I have been on the recipient end of that senario many times...I know that feeling all to well. This is one of the ways that *I* can pay forward the things given to me.
People, I am not rich, I am not rolling around in lavishness.. I am blessed to have people that help me.. in my life. Sometimes I get extra help, and can share with my friends. So I do. The rest of the time my life is a struggle too. I live paycheck to paycheck, I scrimp and save (not so good at the saving part), I do without, I am frugal and pinch pennies, I sometimes get myself in the red too. But a big part of my "joie de vie", my love of life, is giving and helping other people. It's just how I was raised, and the person I turned out to be. So sometimes, even when I can't afford to give, I do anyway.
That could lead to the other big reason I left, but I won't go there now. When it becomes appropriate, I'll bring it up. But you all should know this little fact about our group, and maybe it will help you, when you give/take....
Almost every single one of us, is living in a house (rural or urban) that is almost identical to the other members. People, I have your addresses

I have seen your houses. They look like mine, they look like Julies, they look like almost every other member of our little group.. (not so little anymore)... but the point of this is: we are all in the same/similar boat(s). The group just works because; some of us having been doing this longer and can share a little of that Waffle juice, or have learned to have a stash of attys on hand, to spare one. When I first started.. people shared with me, now I can share back. I also went from having a 3 pad family cig budget, to almost none, so that is the money I used. In the beginning, I had extra vaping money, and I had access to some really great deals.. so I took advantage (I'm a great shopper) So, for me to build up my stash quickly.. it worked out for me. Now, when I look at what I have, and I know I'm not going to use that item, I send it to someone that will put it to use.. to someone that does have an immediate need for it. To me, that is better than having it sit in a drawer, just because I might need it later (believe me.. that happens too!

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I guess, what I'm trying to say... I don't want anyone to feel badly, taking a gift from me. Think of me instead, as your neighbor, and you are borrowing some sugar... (yes we do that here)... are you going to give it back? No, but you might pay it forward. Or think of me as your sister that bought too many tee-shirts, and gives you a couple. Do you fret over who has more? Or if you can give back?..... No, you take it because you need it, or want it. Or think of me as your Aunt that bought a new TV and is getting rid of the old one... do you worry about how much it cost? No.. it doesn't matter because she doesn't need it anymore.
Well, that is me.. I'm just your sister, you neighbor, your Aunt, your friend.... someone that has an extra few bottles, or bought too many 901 batteries... and is offering to share with you.