The Worst Day...No Cigs

[MorpheusPA]

I've just proved to myself that I no longer smoke, and as long as I have my vape, I never will.

Yesterday, the dog collapsed when he got up. After waiting most of the day, it turned out to be cancer of the spleen (almost invisible, no symptoms until there suddenly ARE symptoms, and very aggressive). The dog was about to turn fifteen, unlikely to survive the surgery, and bleeding internally pretty badly. With the doctor's advice, we had him put to sleep.

Then early this morning I got a call. My better half's kidney stone was moving again, and guess who forgot their pain meds? I ran those in and drove us home.

Later this afternoon I realized I never, through the whole mess, wanted a cigarette. But my vape and I were attached through the period.

I guess I'm officially and totally a non-smoker.

 

[yellowrider]

Good job, stay strong. Putting down a dog is one of the hardest things I had to do, so that must have been tough.

 

[Tanti]

I've just proved to myself that I no longer smoke, and as long as I have my vape, I never will.

Yesterday, the dog collapsed when he got up. After waiting most of the day, it turned out to be cancer of the spleen (almost invisible, no symptoms until there suddenly ARE symptoms, and very aggressive). The dog was about to turn fifteen, unlikely to survive the surgery, and bleeding internally pretty badly. With the doctor's advice, we had him put to sleep.

Then early this morning I got a call. My better half's kidney stone was moving again, and guess who forgot their pain meds? I ran those in and drove us home.

Later this afternoon I realized I never, through the whole mess, wanted a cigarette. But my vape and I were attached through the period.

I guess I'm officially and totally a non-smoker.

If you made it threw all that then you can make it threw anything. Good job.
Sorry you had to put your dog down, treasure the pawprints he left on your heart.

 

[Steeler Girl]

Awww Morpheus I went through the same with my best buddy in September. I thought if there was ever a day I would have smoked it would have been in the car on the way to and from the vet's office. Thankfully I refrained as well. So sorry for your loss

 

[Cloud Ninja]

Dang, I'm sorry for your loss, I know a persons pet is family. Just stay strong and congratulations for being a non smoker.

 

[Faylool]

Good for you and you'll probably end up having a delayed reaction bless your heart that was quick and sudden. It got taken care of properly. Good job. Lucky dog. My sympathy for your loss

 

[xanderxman]

I have not lost one of my dogs yet but I dread the day. My oldest dog is 15 this year and has what I call selective hearing. She can't hear me call her for a bath but she can hear the mailman from 2 blocks away. Those are the types of memories I hold onto and hope that you do the same. Just know that your buddy is still living in your heart.

It is times like these that bring out the best in people, oddly enough. You lost a dear friend but you showed yourself that you could do without cigs. Just try to think of it like this. Your dog's last act was to show you that you could quit cigs. He may be gone but he just may have saved you. What more could you ask for?

 

[Kopfstimmen]

I'm so sorry, Morpheus. My condolences. Glad to hear you avoided smoking, though.

 

[Rickajho]

So sorry to hear about your uppy od. I can relate. I have gone through two of those "I know I'm gonna relapse" crises since I quit smoking/started vaping. You know - exactly the types of things that would have driven you back to smoking if you had quit with "approved" methods. This time around? Didn't even give a second thought - or a first thought - to wanting a cigarette.

So sorry for your loss. And so happy for your success too.

 

[Debi]

So sorry about your pup. That was one tough test and you made it through. Congrats and may you have a long, long stretch of better days beginning now.

 

[jfalbanese]

sorry for both. 15 years a great run. you took good care of your dog. don't wait too long to get another. best of luck, and congrats on your road to the end of tobacco slavery.

 

[Rickajho]

Bumpitty. 'Cause I'm betting Morpheus could use some words of support this weekend.

 

[VapnNow]

Hope the days after have been going ok for you. I know how hard this can be and how so many small things remind you of your best friend. Glad you were able to learn how vaping has taken over and replaced the old habit of turning to a smoke in times of stress.

 

[Ryedan]

My condolences on your canine loss Morpheus and I hope your BH is doing well. I know kidney stones can be very painful, *MY* better half told me so. Also very happy you made it through without smoking. Best of luck with it all and let us know how things are going.

 

[Beccca]

LOosing a loved dog is a true broken heart...Peace through your grieving.

 

[MorpheusPA]

So far, so...meh, actually. We're all kind of depressed, including the other dog. He's getting more than twice the attention right now to try to keep him on the level.

The kidney stone is still passing, but at least the pain meds are great and the stone is fairly small.

All things considered, we're thinking of the last week as something to simply be forgotten and the rest of this as something to be gotten through. We're also thinking of another dog this spring as it's way too quiet in this place.

Thanks for the kind words, everybody! They do help.

 

[patkin]

I'm sorry to hear you lost your beloved furry friend. May your grief pass gently. Congratulations on vaping.

 

[Susaz]

I've just proved to myself that I no longer smoke, and as long as I have my vape, I never will.

Yesterday, the dog collapsed when he got up. After waiting most of the day, it turned out to be cancer of the spleen (almost invisible, no symptoms until there suddenly ARE symptoms, and very aggressive). The dog was about to turn fifteen, unlikely to survive the surgery, and bleeding internally pretty badly. With the doctor's advice, we had him put to sleep.

Then early this morning I got a call. My better half's kidney stone was moving again, and guess who forgot their pain meds? I ran those in and drove us home.

Later this afternoon I realized I never, through the whole mess, wanted a cigarette. But my vape and I were attached through the period.

I guess I'm officially and totally a non-smoker.

Sorry to hear about your dog... Elvis is officially turning 14 next June and his hind legs are already failing. My dad's been going in and out of the hospital due to a prostatic/bladder cancer, although it was caught in time.

I managed to vape for three full days without craving, but yesterday I got mad with my ex and I needed a cigarette. My liquids are still not here so I'm vaping leftovers, and instead of a 10 cig pack I bought a 20 by mistake. I intend to vape as much as I can, but I'm vaping too much, and upping the nic doesn't cut the cravings.

I look forward to vaping all the time like you do!

 

[Renolizzie]

Morpheus, sorry to hear of your loss and dealing with a better half that is in pain from kidney stones on top of that.

I lost two of my two long time friends at the ages of 15 and 13. They still make me smile when I think of those two polar opposites and how much they livened up my life for all those years.

I wasn't going to "replace" them but it was way too lonely around here without a dog or two so I got Penny Poo Poo the Corgi not too long after wards. She has made me laugh everyday. Even Hubby doesn't make me laugh everyday. There have been a couple of days I have been pretty peeved at him. Not Penny, I just cannot stay mad at that comical looking dog. When she plays toy, she is so funny. And she plays toy everyday.

I think it is wonderful that you didn't want to smoke even through a very rough day like that one.

 

[Devilok]

My condolences, my dog is family to me and it is always a very hard thing to have to put one down Good job on not smoking, I would definitely say you are a non smoker for sure, grats!